Recovery

Life

I'm tired of watching life pass by. I want to experience life and all that that world has to offer. I want to feel every ray on sunshine that kisses my skin through the gray clouds that veil the blue sky. I want to learn how to surf and fall off my board into the breathtakingly cold water feeling the sea foam brush against my neck as I swim to the surface with a smile so wide it hurts. I want to jump out of a plane and feel the pain of fear and anticipation stabbing me in the stomach as I pull the cord releasing a large cape like parachute that makes me feel like I'm a superhero. I want to see the world and learn from the people who feel nature and know the earth's language and I want to dance around bonfires with them feeling the spirit of nature inside of me, the animal inside of me. I want to fall in love with a geek, a bad boy, a hopeless romantic and I want to kiss them in the rain and tell them I love them even though I know we aren't going to last more than 9 months.

But most of all, I want to make all these want-to's and maybe one day I-have's because that is how I am going to learn to love every person for themselves and love myself and love the earth. I am going to learn how to love because all in all I am tired of sitting and letting life pass me by. I don't need to be remembered or noticed. I just need to be myself but first I have to find myself and how else am I going to do that if I don't live. And I mean to really live.