Recovery

What I Am

In celebration of gay marriage being legalized in all 50 states, this is a special chapter. I will come clean with stuff that not a lot of people know about me. This is such a happy day for the LGBT community and for everyone who supports them, including me, so that is why I am doing this. Enjoy <3

I am a diabetic. I was born with neonatal diabetes but they went away after 3 months. When I was 14, I was sent to the ER and was diagnosed with Type One. In January of 2014, my family found out about a test Chicago doctors were conducting on type ones that were special, like me. I didn't take a lot of insulin, some days I didn't take any at all. The test was to see if I was monogenic. We signed up but it would take 2 years before I took the test. A month ago however, I was able to take it and we sent the results to Chicago. 2 weeks or so ago, we got the results back and they came back positive. Positive meant I was no longer Type One, and I would no longer check myself, take shots, or count carbs. I would take a pill a day and be a normal person. We went to the doctor last Friday, and I got my pill. We learned that I was a transient neonatal diabetic. I have been taking the pill for a few days, and sadly, it's not working as we had hoped. I have been having higher blood sugars than normal in the evening, in the mid 200's. We are hoping that we can get a new pill or something else, and that we won't have to go back to shots and prickings. I do not care how I am looked at as a diabetic, I am proud to be part of the diabetic community.

I am a feminist. I believe women should be equal to men. There has been millions of years where women are constantly being looked down on. Women need to be up there with men. I am not saying that women should overpower men, but they should be equal. When I hear of men/boys getting treated better than women/girls, it gets me furious. It gets me furious in school because of the dress code that is enforced. It is not fair. It needs to change. Women need to get paid equally to men, and they should not be turned down jobs because they are a woman. I do not care how I am looked at as a feminist, I am a woman and I am proud to be one.

I am against rape. Rape is not a joke, it is a very serious matter. I do not care if the girl is passed out drunk, IT IS NOT OKAY. I do not care if they are wearing provocative clothing, IT IS NOT OKAY. Our society's views are "If she is not wearing any clothing or barely any, she asked for it." Around the world millions of women get raped, even if they are dressed head to toe so do not say rape is because of the women's clothing. People who make rape jokes are the lowest of the low of people. It is not a funny matter, what if your best friend, your mom, or even yourself was raped? How would you feel if the entire world blamed YOU and not the rapist? If you think rape is okay, do not come into my life.

I am an atheist. However, I am not like most. I do believe there was a force that created our universe, our world, but I do not believe that Jesus walked our earth and was resurrected and I do not believe that there is a God looking down on us. My grandparents have always been religious and my grandmother has always tried pushing religion on me, but I never could fully believe it. And maybe there is a heaven and a God and a hell, but I will not believe that until I see it. I have thought about my religious views for years now, and I have realized that I do not believe. I used to go to church and pray every night when I was a little girl, but I am no longer little. I have seen how the world is and how people behave and act and I just do not believe a God would allow such bad things to happen. I know that may seem cliche, but that is just how I feel. I do not care how I am looked at as an atheist, I am proud to have finally realized my views.

I support the LGBT community. I have many friends that are gay, and I know many people that are afraid to come out. I am hoping they will come out now that the law was made. I am a straight woman yes, but I will admit that I have found other women attractive. This is not because I am atheist either and don't believe the Bible said how the same sex should not be in love, this is because love is love no matter what race, sexuality, or religion. If you love someone, you love them and you deserve to be with them. If people hate you two together, fuck them. They are not part of your life. You two are part of each other's lives, it only matters between you two. Love is love and I'm proud to support the LGBT community.

That is me and some of my deepest parts of me that I'm too scared to share with my friends and family but today was a special day for people and I have been happy for a couple of days now. I know my personality is changing into a better person and I am proud of that. This is who I am and I am not ashamed of it.