Recovery

5 Things That I Will Do As A Mother

1. When you have your first heartbreak, I won't tell you that it wasn't true love so it shouldn't hurt. I will hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you and that my love is more important than his. I will let you cry and I will stroke your hair and comfort you when he wouldn't.

2. When you go out and get drunk for the first time underage, I will have to ground you. I will take your phone but I will not read your messages. I will respect your privacy and wait for you to tell me yourself what it is that causes you to drink so much that you can't see straight. I will wait for you to say who's name made you drink enough to forget your own.

3. I will tell you I love you everyday. I don't care if you screamed at me the previous night, saying that I mean nothing to you. I will wake you up for school the next day with a kiss on your forehead and "I love you" on my lips. You will always feel loved.

4. When you wake up on a Tuesday and your eyelids are swollen from crying too much and your hair is a mess, I will hold you and make you soup as I call your school and tell them you're sick. I won't allow you to skip school all the time, but when you are too sad to walk straight I will put on morning cartoons and hope to see you smile.

5. When it's two in the morning and I hear soft cries and the blows of your fist to your pillow, I will knock softly on your door in hopes that you will let me in so I can dry your eyes and ask what's wrong. When you tell me it's nothing, I will ask one more time, my voice soft and caring. If you choose not to tell me, I will nod and rub circles on your back until you fall asleep. I will let you know that I am here.