Recovery

Routine Now To Future

Wake up. Get dressed. Go to school. Talk with people. Surround myself with geometry and chemistry problems. School ends. Go workout. Get home. Homework. Shower. Eat. TV with family. Clean kitchen. Netflix in my room. Get ready for tomorrow. Go to bed. Sleep. Dream or nightmare depending on the night. Repeat.

That's how it is every day. It used to be the same but with your name in my routine. I'm trying to replace you. I'm slowly getting there. I've laughed since you. I've smiled. I'm changing my life. Getting it together. I'll be gone soon. I'll be living on my own. A nice apartment, little group of girlfriends to go get drinks with on Friday nights. I'll graduate college, move to a bigger city, get a job. Have a fling here and there. Go to the coffee shop in the morning and read. And then I'll meet a guy. A guy who's special and loves me for who I am. We'll be together for a few years. Then he'll ask me to marry him and we'll be engaged. I'll invite everyone I know and have a beautiful wedding. Go to an island for our honeymoon maybe. We'll move together and a few years have a baby. I'll be happy and safe. All my bad thoughts would be long gone. Then I'll get a call from you asking how I've been and I'll say "Thank you for leaving" and that's when you'll realize what you lost.