Recovery

Took Her For Granted

I saw her today and she was smiling and laughing. I could see in her eyes that she was glad to see me. It was the exact same look she gave me when we first saw each other... she was so happy... I could tell that the love was still there and I know deep down that she still wants me... but I could also see fear, she's afraid of me... not physically but emotionally... and that's what hurts me the most... I love that girl so much it terrifies me... I'd do anything and everything to make sure she's happy and smiling, even if she's not with me or I'm not the reason for it... my love for her is so real man, it's so strong and powerful. she still makes my day and she doesn't even know it... when she was talking to that new guy it hurt me but I had to shrug it off and act like I didn't care, but I did... I still see her in my dreams... that's where she stays now... I still think of her everyday and every time I wake up and before I fall asleep. I see her everywhere. Everything reminds me of her... I miss her so much man... I just wish I could hold her again.. I wish I could make her feel safe and wanted again... I wish she wasn't afraid of me... I wish I could be the reason for her smile again... but I fucked that up. I shouldn't have taken her for granted.