Paranoid - PhanFiction

Chapter #21

*PHILS POV*

The rest of the night Dan and I lay cuddled up in each other's arms in his warm bed, listening to music and singing along to the lyrics quietly.

The day got later and later and Dan's eyes got heavier and heavier as I started singing the lyrics to All Of This by Blink-182, quietly.

"Use me Holly come on and use me, We know where we go, Use me Holly come on and use me, We go where we know"

Dans eyes flutter open and shut, struggling to stay awake.

"Sleep." I whispered as my fingers tangled in his silky brown hair. He closed his eyes and almost instantly fell into a quiet sleep.

I smiled as our legs tangled and sat in the silence as Blink-182 played in the background and soon or later I fell asleep.

-

*DANS POV*

I woke up to the light of the sun shining through the window and whipped my eyes to get used to the brightness and looked to Phil.

I frowned, memories from yesterday flooded my brain and I wrapped my arm around his shirtless form and rested my head on his chest.

I heard his heart beat and felt his chest rise up and down each time he breathed.

My eyes got watery and I started to cry. Hard.

We had school today but I wanted to rest and I wanted Phil to rest even more, I mean, he deserves it for all he does for me and because of yesterday.

I had no idea Phil felt that bad.

The words he shouted at me at the bridge yesterday flew around my brain.

"I hate you!"

"You only want me alive so I can help you!"

It hurt.

I hope that's not how he felt and just said it out of spike.

'Of course he means what he said, you're an awful excuse for a being.'

No, that's not true...

'You don't do anything but wallow in your fears and sadness while he works his butt off helping you and doing school all at the same time.'

He loves me.

'Don't lie to yourself.'

"SHUT UP!" I screamed and Phil jolted up, looking around. "Wh-" Phil mumbled, checking the time.

8:30am.

"What?" Phil said, annoyance in his voice. "I'm sorry, I-uh-I had a nightmare that's all." I regretted lying, and because what I just said will put more stress on his shoulders.

He hugged me and sighed. "It's okay." He said.

No, I don't want his pitty. He should be the one in my arms and me comforting him.

"Don't worry, it's fine." I faked smiled and got out of bed. "Dan, I love you." Liar. "Love you too, Lion." And with that I walked out and made breakfast before school. I knew we'd be late though.

-

After school Phil and I walked home, hand in hand and made small talk until we arrived.

"I'm gonna go do some homework." Phil shouted as I walked into my bedroom. "Alright!" I shouted back.

I browsed tumblr for a while but got tired and fell asleep early. Thankful because I did not want to be awake when it got dark.

But I guess the world is against me...

I was waken up by a shout and I jolted up and checked the time on my phone.

8:23pm.

Fear struck and my heart dropped at the fear that swooshed through my body.

Phil.

Phil could be in danger.

I knew I shouldn't jump to conclusions but I can't help it.

I stepped out of my room quietly and walked through the hall and looked in the living area to see an awful site.

Chris, slobbering and kissing all over MY boyfriend.

All fear and sadness that was in my mind flew right through the window and anger struck.

Just his luck, I didn't take my pills today.

Crap is gonna go down.