Colby Brock Imagines

*(TW)* Cuts...

TW!: SH (self harm), Blood, Sharp objects

One morning i woke up and noticed Colby wasn't next to me. i sat up tiredly and picked up my phone to check the time. It was around 10:36 a.m. I could hear Colby walking up the stairs. When he came in he smiled at me while his blue eyes sparkled in the sun shining through the curtains. 

Colby: "Good morning beautiful."

I smiled tiredly at him as i yawned. He chuckled and walked over to me and kissed my forehead. 

"Morning baby." I said tiredly to him.

Colby: "I will be downstairs if you need me, ok?"

"Ok love you."

Colby: "Love you too." He said before walking out of the room. When he left the room my smile dropped and i sighed quietly before getting up. I walked over to the closet and grabbed my usual baggy shirt, hoodie, and sweatpants that i have been wearing for 2 weeks now. I changed and went into the bathroom.

When i entered the bathroom i looked up and saw my razor sitting on the side of the bathtub where i left it last night.

Flashback:

Colby was in his office editing with Sam, our roommate and his best friend he does YouTube with. I went in the bathroom and turned on the facet for the shower. i stripped out of my clothes and went into the shower. i noticed my razor sitting on the edge of the bathtub and couldn't resist. 

i grabbed it and started going down my arm in many ways. each slit would bring more blood. after a few minutes, and many tears, i cleaned off the blade on my razor and set it back where it was. i continued my shower and when i got out my cuts were stinging from the water. I dried off and changed into pajama pants and a long sleeve shirt so Colby wouldn't see. i put on a fake smile for the rest of the night.

End of Flashback:

I picked up my razor and stood over the bathroom sink staring at myself in the mirror. i looked down at the razor and i quickly turned and shut the door, locking it too, before starting to cut over the spots i cut last night and in new spots. each cut would lead to more warm blood of mine going down my arm and into the sink. i turned on the water so the blood would go down the drain and not stain it since it was white.

I continued cutting for a few minutes with silent tears going down my face. Once i stopped i cleaned the razor and put it back and washed the dried and new blood off my arm before pulling my sleeve over it. i brushed my teeth and hair like i originally was going to do and put my hair in a low ponytail. I also washed my face so it was less red ad so he wouldn't find out i was crying earlier. 

When i went downstairs i walked in on Colby and Sam talking in the kitchen. i sat at the table and pulled out my phone. Colby noticed me and walked over smiling and kissed the top of my head.

Colby: "Hi honey."

"Hey babe."

Colby: "I have some more editing i have to do today baby. i'm sorry about it."

"It's alright. i understand it's for your job."

Colby: "Thank you baby. This is why i love you. Because you understanding."

Colby kissed me before leaving and going to his office with Sam. I scrolled through some social medias before getting up and grabbing a snack and going back to our room. i laid down on our bed and put my head phones in before laying flat on our bed and listening to music.

I ended up falling asleep because I've been more exhausted and tired recently so i fell asleep and woke up an hour later. Colby wasn't in our room so i supposed he was still editing. I sat up and noticed my phone shut off so i turned the music back on i ended up zoning out while looking at the wall.

I felt something touch my shoulder and it startled me as it snapped me out of zoning out. i looked over and saw it was Colby looking concerned. He took my headphones out of my ears so i could hear him.

Colby: "Baby what was that? Why didn't you notice me when i first came in?"

"Oh sorry. It was nothing."

Colby: "Babe are you ok?"

"Yea i'm fine why?"

Colby: "I've noticed you have zoned out a lot recently and you've had no energy to do anything and you've been more tired. I don't believe your 'ok' so tell me what's wrong."

"It's nothing."

Colby frowns and he is clearly concerned. He hugged me and kissed my cheek trying to show me comfort. I lifted my arm to hug him too and then my sleeve went up and i quickly pulled it back down before he could see it. Luckily he didn't see it so i hugged him. He laid down with me in his arms and he had me laying on his chest. 

We were snuggling on the bed and he turned on our TV in our room and we started watching a movie. I was laying beside him with his arm around my shoulder. I pulled out my phone and was scrolling through some stuff when Colby grabbed it from my hands and held it above my head. I smiled at him playfully.

"Hey give that back!" 

I reached up to grab it with one of my hands and thats when it happened..

My. Sleeve. Fell. Down.

Colby's eyes went wide when he saw my arm and all the newer and older scars. I panicked and put my arm back down and pulled my sleeve back down quickly. Colby snapped out of his shock and looked at me with sad and concerned eyes.

Colby: "Honey are you cutting yourself?" He asked concerned but calmly.

Tears welled up in my eyes and i broke down in tears. Colby sat up and pulled me onto his lap, rubbing my back.

Colby: "It's ok honey. Shhh. It's going to be ok. I'm not upset with you." He said comforting me.

He rubbed my back and whispered comforting things to me as i cried in his arms on his lap. my head was resting against his chest and i had tears streaming down my face. Colby did pull up both my sleeves so he could look at the cuts on my arms. he made sure to be gentle so he wouldn't hurt me. 

I fell asleep crying in his arms and him rubbing my back and saying calming and comforting things to me. He kissed my forehead when i fell asleep and calmed down before laying down with me on his chest and he fell asleep shortly after.