Aroace thoughts/rants, poems more

Im ace too

So I'm aroace. I've been talking mostly about my aro experience but I'm ace too. I knew I was ace before I knew I was aro and it was way easier for me to accept too bc I have less resentment towards sex than I do romance.

I honestly forget that I'm asexual. Like I'll say I'm aroace but like I forget that sex is a real thing and I forget how sexual people can be and how sexual things really are.

Like I'm so aromantic I can't stop thinking about why I'm aro, why I love it, why I hate it, why amatonormativity angers me, so on. But with being ace it's the exact opposite. I never think about it bc I honestly forget sex exists and that people actually like it/think about it. And when I'm reminded or see something sexual my repulsion comes out and I'm grossed out. But something has to trigger it.

Sure my aro rage can be trigged. But often times it's trigged purely because of me. Because I am actively thinking about how I hate amatonormativity or the relationship hierarchy.

That being said I think I accidentally made all my characters asexual bc I forget sec is real.

Like, how do I write an allosexual person? I guess the side characters are technically allo bc you can't see their thoughts anyways. Idk. My brain hurts trying to explain this.

Bc I've been saying my main characters are aro and aroace like using them interchangeably but those terms are NOT interchangeable but the ace part of their identity is almost irrelevant bc sex is not a topic that's ever brought up. It straight up like, does not exist.

But I wouldn't say Liam is asexual.

But I would say Zac is ace not aro. But if everyone is technically ace bc sex isn't a thing how is Zac like Ace in a different way? Bc like I guess sec is technically a thing in my book, but it's really not.

Idk. I'm tired I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

But thanks for listening to my ramble. I wish you a very beautiful day/night. Take care 💚💜