Aroace thoughts/rants, poems more

Need some advice

As the title suggests I need some advice. Originally I wasn't going to actually include the word "aroace" in my book (and in case you don't know, I'm writing a book called No Regrets, it's about ghosts and platonic love. The main characters are both on the aroace spectrum. Rue is romance/sex repulsed/negative Reggie is romance indifferent/unsure how he feels about it and I haven't decided if he's sex replused or not bc sex really isn't a thing in my story lol)

I wasn't going to include the word "aroace" bc I didn't think the characters would know that word so they wouldn't call themselves aroace. I was just going to make it clear through the characters thoughts and dialogue and such that they had no interest in romance/sex and did not feel attraction. But, I have decided to actually include them finding the word aroace and discovering that's how they feel bc it's important to me to actually use those words so aroaces can feel seen and it's impossible for anyone to deny they're aroace.

But I don't want it to seem too info dumpy or unnatural or even unnecessary. So I'll share it here with you and I would like to know what you guys think. This version is still just a draft, but the big picture is still there.

"Well, I was more so thinking how me and you both agreed we don't understand romance. Or how it's not something we want to seek out, even though the world seems to revolve around it"

"Yeah, honestly, it's on the back of my mind 24/7. It just makes me so angry people assume just because it's romantic, it's more and how you need romance to be fulfilled, but the only times I've felt fulfilled was when I was with my best friend when I was alive and now when I'm with you."

"Yeah, same. I mean, I don't know if I'll ever want a romantic partner because how could I love them more than my friends, espically because love is never ending, so how do people even rank that stuff?" Reggie rambles. "Anyways, I'm getting side-tracked. I think I know why we're like this. I read this book and the main character is aroace. They had little to no romantic and sexual attraction and zero interest in it."

"So, there's an actual word for it?" Rue asks. She didn't think she'd ever find the words to express how she feels, yet here one is; and even better, a person who understands.

"Yeah, I guess so, it's a spectrum so everyone feels a little differently. Like, Noah's boyfriend actually recommend me the book and he's ace, not aro, so he feels romantic attraction but not sexual." Reggie says. "I can give you the book if you wanna read it?"

"Really? Thanks, you don't have to give it to me. I'll just borrow it."

"The main character really reminds me of you, you should keep it." Reggie replies. "Although, I did mark stuff in it, I hope that doesn't bother you."

"No, it doesn't."

"Cool, I'll bring it tomorrow." Reggie smiles. "I just know you'll love it."

"So you think we might be aroace?"

"Well, it sounds right for me. You can decide if it feels right for you."

Rue wants to accept the word as herself, but can one word really sum up all of her feelings? All of her anger and frustration? All of her pain? Why couldn't this word find her sooner? Maybe if she knew there was a valid explanation for how she feels, she could have worked through her emotions instead of jumping and leaving James with another dead loved one.

That's all I have but I think there will be another scene with her reading of finishing the book and her knowing she must be aroace but still feeling angry about it or like not angry she's aroace but just angry about amatonormativity even if she doesn't know it's called amatonormativity. I might include that word tho.

And I'm also gonna write a scene with Reggie telling his friends Noah and Liam he's aroace and Noah, sweet Noah☺️, will be like "oh cool dude!" And Liam, fucking Liam 🙄, will be an ignorant bitch and say "you'll find the right perosn dude, don't give up!" Or something like that basically saying aroace doesn't exist and he just needs to find the right person.

So yea. Let me know what you guys think. If it's too info dumpy or inauthentic. I know I'm aroace myself so I should be able to write a valid experience but I just wanna hear some other aroace opinions on it.

Thanks for reading, and I hope you all have a beautiful day! The weather is finally starting to get nice for me, I'm so ready for spring.
Best wishes, take care 💚💜