Aroace thoughts/rants, poems more

This again

One of the reasons I started deconstructing my relgion is bc of the ideology that it's "god wife kids" bc one, you know this about me already I think ranking love is unfair I can't rank my love but in the senerio where I'd have to chose my spouse or kids I would fucking choose my kids. As a parent you are supposed to protect your child. You are the reason that child is here in the first place. And the god part
is a gray area bc people get touchy with religion but I personally think an all loving god would expect and want you to put your family and kids first and if he doesn't it's not a god I want anything to do with. Children need a parent's love.

So yeah I just always get pissed with this hiarchy bc some people will say "we can make more kids".

People are not replaceable.

I know I have talked about this on here before or at least I talked about it in my first book. If I "rank" how I love people then I don't really "love" the people I rank below anyone else. I just like them or care for them. If I love you, that's it. I love you.

Like of course I'm aro so I am not gonna seek out romance as much as I do friendship so you could say I don't prioritize romance but that's because I don't have it. If I had a romantic partner that I actually loved they would get the same amount of love as I give anyone else I love.

But like in the scenario where people are saying "o can make more kids" implying it's a life or death scenario, saving my kids bc that's my fucking responsibility. If my spouse lets my kid die to save me I'm divorced. Like fuck you, you let my baby die?

I'm just mad lol. Earlier today I got told "amatonormativity isn't hurtful" so this is just building up.

And like it's so frustrating bc they'll say "you need to have a happy marriage to have a happy kid" like I agree but you prioritizing a kid shouldn't make your marriage worse, if your spouse is mad you put your kid first then your spouse probably shouldn't be a parent.

You can have a happy marriage and put your kid first if people stopped expecting romamce to be the highest.

How do I stop being angry about all of this.