Texting Ashton
You: you're probably not going to see this rn bc time differences but I have to tell you something
You: I know it's more proper to do it in person but you're miles away and I'm too scared to say it to your face.
You: ughhhhh I really feel like bad person
Ashton: you should, you just woke me up from my slumber
You: yOU'RE AWAKE
Ashton: no I'm sleep-texting
Ashton: YES IM FUCKING AWAKE AND FULLY CONSCIOUS
You: GO BACK TO SLEEP
Ashton: why??? you woke me up bc you obviously have something important to tell me. are you okay?
You: yeah...well... not really...
You: but it can wait till the morning
Ashton: no, it can't. your mental health is my #1 priority right now. What's wrong (Y/N)?
You: ughhhhhhh
You: I wish I didn't have any emotions.
Ashton: Lol but then you'd be a robot
You: maybe i want to be a robot
Ashton: but emotions are great. you feel things
You: mAYBE I DONT WANT TO FEEL THINGS (that sounds inappropriate)
Ashton: *rolls eyes*
You: Ashtonnnnnnn
You: I hate feeling this way
Ashton: feeling what way?
You: feeling everything is so magical yet so painful at the same time.
Ashton: I literally don't have a clue what you're talking about but I'm just going to pretend I do
Ashton: *clears throat*
Ashton: I completely understand what you're talking about.
You: I have something to tell me... maybe I shouldn't though...
Ashton: maybe you should
Ashton: you're my bestie (Y/N), you can tell me anythingggg
You: our friendship could be ruined after this
Ashton: *gasp* you broke my drums, didn't you?
You: no
Ashton: well, that's a relief
You: I should keep this to myself, I mean you have a girlfriend for crying out loud. I'd be a horrible person for getting in the way of that
Ashton: oh... I think I'm catching on to this...
You: I guess I have to say it then
Ashton: no don't do it
You: I think I'm falling in love with you Ashton.
Ashton: fuck
Ashton: I don't know what to say
You: you don't have to say anything
You: I know NOTHING will happen between us more than friendship. Maybe it's just a small crush, maybe it'll go away.
Ashton: what if it doesn't?
You: then that's just it. I'll be heartbroken for the rest of my life bc I just care for your happiness, Ashton.
Ashton: but (Y/N), that wouldn't be fair to you
You: it'll be fine
Ashton: no it won't
You: fine, then I'll stay away from you
Ashton: gurl, what
You: my feelings won't go away if I'm around you often. I'll just ruin everything
Ashton: but I can't stay away from you (Y/N)
You: you have a girlfriend though
Ashton: you're my best friend. best friends can break hearts too, and right now you're breaking mine.
You: YOU'RE NOT MAKING THIS EASY FOR ME I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
Ashton: we could get through this, together
You: there shouldn't be anything for us to get through
You: this sucks
Ashton: things will be fine
You: nO IT WONT ASHTON. OKAY ITS FINAL. YOU NEED TO STAY AWAY FROM ME BC IF NOT THINGS WONT BE FINE. I PROMISE THAT ONE DAY WHEN MY FEELINGS COMPLETELY DISAPPEAR, WE CAN HANG OUT TOGETHER WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT. BUT RIGHT NOW THE TIME ISNT RIGHT. IM SORRY.
Ashton: :(
You: oh, and Ashton?
Ashton: what?
You: *Ashton Kutcher bursts into the room* you've just been punk'd!
You: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ashton: you little shit
Ashton: tf (Y/N) you almost gave me a heart attack
You: it's 3AM I can't sleep and I'm bored
Ashton: and so you decide to screw around with me??
You: yep
Ashton: ughhhhhh
Ashton: why couldn't you do this to Luke Michael or Calum
You: bc it wouldn't be as fun
Ashton: SO YOU DECIDE TO WAKE ME UP
Ashton: I WAS CLOSE TO CRYING BECAUSE I WAS SCARED OF LOSING YOU (Y/N)
You: hey it could've been worse, I could've said something like
You: "bAnG mE lIkE yOu BaNg YoUr DrUmS"
Ashton: damn
You: *insert pepe*
Ashton: I need to go back to sleep, go away
You: I'll go away, only to be returned in your nightmares
You: sleep tight Ashton Fletcher Irwin ;)
Ashton: you're weird
You: I know
You: I embrace it
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5sos is back in my state, yesssssss
I don't think my town is close to Camden tho
QOTC: what's your favorite 5sos lyrics?
my answer: "when I close my eyes and try to sleep I fall apart I'm fighting hard to breathe, you're the reason the only reason. even though my dizzy head is numb I swear my heart is never giving up, you're the reason the only reason."
love you to the moon and back xx
