Texting Calum
Calum: hey babe :) are you coming home soon?
You: yeah! just at a red light a few blocks away :*
Calum: don't text and drive!
You: sorryyyyyy babe, just can't wait to see you
Calum: I love you <3
You: I love you too <3
Calum: are you almost here?
You: ...
Calum: (Y/N)?
You: ...
Calum: you okay? it's been over an hour since you were supposed to get home...
You: ...
Calum: baby please... I need to know if you're okay. I'll die inside if you're hurt.
You: is this Calum Hood?
Calum: (Y/N) ARE YOU OKAY
Calum: OH MY GOD YOU GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND WOKE UP WITH AMNESIA
You: I'm sorry sir, (Y/N) (Y/L/N) was in a car accident but (her/his) injuries were very serious.
Calum: what do you mean?
You: this is (Y/N)'s mother, and I'm afraid to tell you that (she/he) didn't make it. it was a fatal texting and driving accident.
Calum: no...
Calum: fuck
Calum: please tell me this is all a dream
Calum: you can't do this to me
Calum: (Y/N)...
...
Calum: it's been a week. I was at your funeral. I cried the whole time. But even as you laid in the casket, you still looked beautiful and still full of life.
Calum: it's my fault. I shouldn't have texted you while you were on the road.
Calum: I shouldn't have loved you too much.
Calum: I hate hurting this way. It's the worse pain I've ever experienced
Calum: all my life I dealt with grief by telling jokes and lighting up the world...
Calum: but not this. 'cause my world isn't even here with me...
Calum: you know, the other boys have been through something very similar like this.
Calum: and I just never understood
Calum: but unfortunately, now I do
Calum: and now I know what true pain feels like. losing you is the worst pain I ever felt and now it's suffocating me, and now I'm succumbing to it's darkness.
Calum: I now live in darkness because you used to be my light, but now you're gone.
Calum: I'm slowly driving myself insane but other people just don't understand never had a(n) (Y/N), fell in love with (her/him), then lost (her/him).
Calum: I want you back. Please.
Calum: I hate myself for this. I deserve it.
Calum: I deserve because I'm the reason you're not here with me anymore.
Calum: it's not fair, you deserve life
Calum: now that I'm broken, now that you know it...
Calum: I can't anymore.
Calum: my mum is making me get therapy. it doesn't work. all my therapist keeps telling me is that I have crazy dreams, and that I have low self-esteem
Calum: I've been put on meds, but I just can't get you out of my head.
Calum: I love you
Calum: i still have every picture of you on my phone. I look at them everyday and try to forget that I'm now alone
Calum: but you know what?
Calum: I have to... I have to let you go.
Calum: it'd be easier for the both of us.
Calum: can you fall in love in heaven? I hope you. it's okay to love someone else baby, as long as they love you back.
Calum: I'm letting you go.
Calum: the last words you texted me, I have it tattooed now. just to let you know.
Calum: I hope you're happy up there. I really do.
Calum: don't worry about silly old me down here, angel.
Calum: I'm letting myself go, too.
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I MADE MYSELF CRY SHIT
IM SORRY. I LOVE YOU?
QOTC: what other bands/artists do you listen to other than 5sos?
my answer: Halsey | fall out boy | twenty one pilots | all time low | the 1975 | panic! at the disco | ed sheeran | R5 | the fray
love you to the moon and back xx
