^yup, that's me!
soz
(F.Y.I. the next four preferences is going to be sad - just a heads up) ((well except for this one, you'll understand at the end))
Texting Calum
You: hey cal...
You: I know it's only been three months since...
You: since...
You: I can't think about it, bc every time I think about it I break into tears.
You: I just... I wish I could do something to go back in time to stop you from getting hit by that car
You: but I can't, and you're gone.
You: fuck.
You: I miss the way you held me in your arms at night
You: I miss the way how you would calm me down by pressing soft kisses on my forehead.
You: I miss the way you held my hand.
You: I goddamn miss you, and it hurts to know I'm never going to be able to hold you anymore
You: I love you so damn much.
You: ash, mikey, and luke miss you too, although they don't like to talk about the accident much
You: I mean, you were the best bass player they knew. you're irreplaceable.
You: last night I tried to use an ouija board to summon you back, but I think I may have summoned something else... oops
You: you would've laughed at my stupidity
You: oh Calum, you were so wise.
You: oh why
You: why
You: why
You: why
You: just WHY did you have to leave me? why did you have to go?
You: I keep reading the songs you wrote for me - they're beautiful, and everyone in the world would've loved them.
You: you were the best thing that ever happened to me, why did you have to slip away? I love you.
You: I don't think I will be able to fall in love with someone else.
You: you're my only one
You: I know you once told me you wanted to be an angel when you die
You: but can't you just reincarnate yourself as a puppy and cuddle me instead?
You: you can even come down as a ghost to scare the shit out of me. I don't care, I just want you back
You: ugh.
You: you deserve to be in heaven. I hope you aren't missing me as much as I miss you
You: because it hurts when I miss you
You: and I don't want you to hurt
You: I want you to be happy
You: happy Calum cures the world of travesty
You: when you smile in heaven the sun shines. yeah, I could tell its you.
You: I tried to write a song in your memory the other day
You: but when I think of you, all my words are jumbled and there's no word in the dictionary to describe how amazing you are.
You: tell me again, why do I have to love you so much?
You: why can't I let go?
You: you'd want me to be happy.
You: in the words of one of your singles, "I'm really not fine at all."
You: I just...
You: I still can't believe it
You: it's just so impossible to believe your dead, I don't know why.
Calum: STOP TELLING EVERYONE I'M DEAD
You: sometimes I can still hear your voice
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I'm an awful, awful person
school takes the energy out of me, I swear
3 MORE DAYS TILL SOUND GOOD FEELS GOOD H O LY SHIT
QOTC: what's your favorite subject at school?
my answer: dismissal time
jk, English I guess :P
love you to the moon and back xx
