Texting Michael
Michael: I just want you to know (Y/N)
Michael: that I will always love you
Michael: and I don't think I could ever stop matter how many other people I date :/
Michael: even if I try to date someone else it would still feel like I was cheating on you
Michael: and sometimes I forget that you'd want me to move on
Michael: but I just can't
Michael: because no one could ever compare to you, babygirl
Michael: fuck
Michael: I also forget that you'd slap me whenever I swore
Michael: so I just slapped myself
Michael: and I'm in public so now people think I'm psychotic
Michael: oh well
Michael: do you know how many songs I wrote about you, (Y/N)?
Michael: like three entire albums worth
Michael: the boys think I should go get some therapy
Michael: but how is therapy going to bring you back? it won't, and nothing ever will
Michael: ugh
Michael: I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
Michael: sometimes i forget that you're actually gone
Michael: and I got so used to cuddling you in the middle of the night that I reach out mindlessly
Michael: but nothing's there. the only thing left is your soul
Michael: the only piece I have left of you is the love letters you'd write to me
Michael: I just wanna cuddle you so bad
Michael: Luke can't replace you
Michael: no one can
Michael: the other day Calum suggested that I should try online dating
Michael: I got so angry bc the only person I want is you
Michael: but it's impossible
Michael: I can't ever forget you
Michael: and whenever I text you, I hope that one day you'll somehow reply (though if you ever do, I'll probably scream)
Michael: Ashton bought me an ouija board as a joke -_-
Michael: I guess it makes sense. All angels eventually have to return to heaven
Michael: but you didn't have to go young. cancer fucking sucks, it consumes the greatest people in the world :/
Michael: (Y/N), you were my greatest person.
Michael: are you watching me? does you golden heart darken when I cry at night - since that's the time I miss you the most.
Michael: goddammit
Michael: it's not fair
Michael: the boys try to distract me from you but what they don't know is that you're permanently inked into my mind. you're face is still clear in my brain and if I ever forget it, I don't know what I'll do.
Michael: I read our old text messages and laugh. we were so crazy, we were so good together
Michael: you're not dead, how can you be dead if you make me feel so alive?
Michael: I still feel you. And you feel like heaven - the place you're at now.
Michael: fuck.
Michael: I just slapped myself again
Michael: we'll be together one day. not today, not in twenty years, but one day.
Michael: it's impossible to fall in love with someone else when you're on my mind everyday
Michael: please come back?
Michael: :(
Michael: ughhhhhh
Michael: I'm going to name our third album after you. I don't care if the boys don't agree, it's going to be called (Y/N) - named after the most beautiful person ever.
Michael: everyone misses you.
Michael: you should have fought harder. why couldn't you fight harder?
Michael: I'm sorry. you gave it all your best, and I'm proud of you. I guess some people have to let go eventually
Michael: the person I blame most is myself. I should've held on tighter.
Michael: I miss your kisses.
Michael: I miss your cuddles.
Michael: I miss your smile.
Michael: I miss your laughs.
Michael: I miss your jokes.
Michael: I miss your support.
Michael: I miss you enthusiasm.
Michael: I still love you.
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IM SO SORRY DONT HURT ME
THESE PREFERENCES ARE GOING TO BE SAD. IT COMES DEEP FROM MY HEART
QOTC: if you had to bring only ONE member of 5sos to a stranded island with you, which member would you bring?
my answer: probably Luke, he's the only member who won't attempt to eat me. we'd be all in this together
love you to the moon and back xx
