Texting Ashton
You: Ashton
You: I really goddamn miss you
You: and I know that you'll never see this, but I just want to let you know that wherever you are - dead or alive - I will never stop loving you even if I tried
You: you've gone missing for six months now
You: you're nowhere to be found, it's like you fell off the face of the earth
You: I filed a police report, and they've been searching you ever since..
You: but yesterday, the case went cold. they've given up on you.
You: but I won't.
You: I won't ever give up on you
You: I still have high hopes.
You: Ash, where are you? What ever happened to you?
You: I just want you to come back home...
You: I want you here, keeping me warm when the room gets cold
You: I want you here, kissing the tears you've caused away
You: I want you here, so I can stop pretending that you are
You: I want you here, so I can stop feeling like I'm going insane.
You: I keep looking through the photos of us... you looked at me with so much love... it's impossible to believe that you would just randomly disappear
You: at first everyone told me "maybe he just left you, some people do that you know" which broke my heart and angered me, because I know you would never leave me on purpose. you loved me too much.
You: then the police announced that they couldn't trace you, or where you could possibly be, and started a full investigation.
You: people felt bad for me
You: I don't want their pity, I want Ashton Irwin.
You: then, as I said before, the case went cold. they stopped looking for you.
You: but I still want answers.
You: I want to know if you're alive.
You: I want to know if you are safe.
You: I want to know if you miss me, if you're hoping that I would save you if you've gotten kidnapped somehow
You: I just... I just wanna know.
You: I love you too much to let go
You: come back to me. please. I beg of you.
...
You: something happened. while I was asleep.
You: it felt like you were there, laying next to me, with your arm wrapped around my waist...
You: but you weren't there at all.
You: then this morning I got a phone call.
You: the police told me they found you...
You: they found your body by the river.
You: you were dead.
You: I'm currently crying my eyes out, because I had so much hope for you.
You: who would've done this to you? how dare they take you away from me, away from the world me...
You: your funeral is scheduled for three days from now. I.. this is just so surreal. I can't believe you're gone
You: you know, the other day I swore that I saw you walking around our apartment
You: like you were a ghost, and you were haunting me
You: you might as well, you're already haunting my mind
You: I really really miss you
You: and I will never forget you.
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soz
2 MORE DAYS TILL SOUNDS GOOD FEELS GOOD AH
QOTC: which song do you predict will be your favorite from the album? (if you already have a fave that's okay)
my answer: I think Outer Space / Carry On
love you to the moon and back xx
(p.s. I need a favor
if you live in my area and you plan to go to Sounds Live Feels Live in Holmdel, NJ, I need someone to go with otherwise my parents refuse to let me go. And I really wanna go
I haven't gotten the tickets yet but if I do I need to go with someone and none of my friends outside the internet like 5sos...
we can chill and fangirl together omf, but if you can't I understand
thank you! xx)
