so I bought black lipstick today am I finally tumblr enough
Texting Luke
You: lukey
You: I would do anything in this world
You: to bring you right back in my arms.
You: why do the good people die too soon? it's not fair
You: I guess it's bc Heaven needed another angel. they needed you
You: at least we were able to get married before you died from that horrible disease
You: forever together, even if it's only in spirit
You: I keep reading the vows you wrote for me
You: "(Y/N) Soon-To-Be-Hemmings, you will never know how lucky I am to marry you. You will never know how lucky I feel to have you by my side - in sickness and in health, before we were in married...
You: "I'm so sorry I don't have much time on the earth, and that we won't be able to live together when we're 80 and covered in wrinkles. But you know what? We're going to be together for the rest of MY life. And that makes me happy because I wouldn't want to marry any other person but you.
You: "(Y/N), you're the most beautiful person to ever walk on this earth. I know I will never be able to see our children grow up, but at least I know our children will look after you since I won't be there.
You: "And I want to let you know that after I die, don't be afraid to be with someone else. I know it'll be hard, but I don't want you to hold back because of me. I want you to love as many people as you want with your beautiful big heart, okay? I want you happy, and I want you to let me go - don't forget me though, just let me be the reminder as to why you should love again.
You: "And it's okay if I'm the only person you'll ever be in love with, but please open up your heart and mind to other people. People who will treat you like you want to be treated, people who will treat you with respect and love. You're so intelligent and kind-hearted and you need someone who appreciates you and your features like I do. I want you to love someone who loves you for who you are. NEVER CHANGE FOR SOMEONE ELSE. Please love yourself baby, and don't let someone convince you otherwise because I will literally come back from the dead to kick their ass. You deserve all the love in the world.
You: "Don't let me keep haunting you. Don't let me stop you from being in love with someone else. Be yourself, and don't be afraid. I love you, now [Mrs./Mr.] Hemmings, and I will always look after you."
You: I cry every time I read this. It feels like you're in the same room as me.
You: I really hate cancer for taking you away from me.
You: and thank you, Luke Hemmings, for being the love of my life.
You: it will be hard, but I'll try to move on. I'll try for you.
You: I love you.
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dONT KILL ME
I made myself cry I
QOTC: current song you're listening to?
my answer: Waste the Night by 5sos
love you to the moon and back xx
