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Kuroo Tetsurou || Emotions

requested by moooky -- I hope you enjoy it! 

soulmate au in which you feel both the emotions of you and your soulmate simultaneously

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 It had always been weird to Kuroo, feeling not only his own emotions but somebody else's as well. He could be completely elated at one moment by his own good fortune and then immediately torn from it seconds later by his soulmate's misfortune, and the constant feeling of two opposite emotions at once a lot to get used to, something he was still trying to get used to.

He wished it was more a one sided thing than it actually was - it made him annoyed, how half of him could be so happy and the other half so down. He wished that there was a way for him to entirely control his soulmate's emotions or the other way around. He wished he was just sad or happy, one thing or the other, but with his soulmate out there, dealing with all kinds of bad without Kuroo to help make it good, he was stuck with the unsteady, annoying feelings people experienced until they were united with their soulmates.

The bad thing was that his soulmate always seemed to be feeling so much - they were sad a lot, and without Kuroo knowing who they were he couldn't help and it made him feel like a pile of shit - both because his inability to help and because he felt what they felt. He wanted to help them, hold the person he was meant to be with when they felt so shitty, but he couldn't because he didn't know them.

So, he suffered with them, and he suffered in an odd, un-silent silence, in a way. He liked to think that his soulmate could feel him suffering with them even though they couldn't talk about suffering together, that he helped them through - he liked to believe that just the knowledge that somebody out there was sharing the feelings they were having helped them through it. He felt important when his soulmate had good days, like they were due to him somehow, even though he knew it didn't work like that.

His soulmate having a seemingly huge lack of positive emotion encouraged Kuroo to make his days better, made him work to be happy so that maybe, just maybe his soulmate could feel a little better throughout their own days. It wasn't hard, really. Kuroo had quite a nice life - his mother was the most caring, amazing woman in the world, and he had the greatest friends he could have ever asked for, and he was now the captain of his volleyball team.

The only really bad thing in his life was that his soulmate was going through shit that he couldn't physically help with, so until he could help her in real life he would do whatever was possible while being away, even if that meant forcing the positive in and trying to shoulder all of the negative.

It worked well enough - his soulmate, (l/n) (f/n) as he came to find out, survived through all the shit to inevitably meet him, and from that day on Kuroo made sure that he and (f/n) were both always happy as could be.

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It was late - almost midnight thirty, if the clock next to their bed was right - and (f/n) wanted Kuroo in bed beside her. She understood why he wasn't; being a law student was hard, especially when the huge exams were right down the road, looming over their heads, but Kuroo had stayed up until two in the morning the last few days studying only to wake up at six for classes, and it wasn't healthy.

(f/n) could literally feel the stress, the anxiety eating away at Kuroo, and it was starting to get to her too. She figured it was her turn - it was time for her to do what Kuroo had been doing for years - shoulder the emotion.

She slowly moved out of bed and towards the door, heading for the living room. The lights were all still on in the room, and Kuroo was sat in the middle of the room at the small coffee table, books and papers full of notes scattered around him, along with a coffee cup that he had filled at least three times that night. (f/n) dropped onto her knees softly behind Kuroo and wrapped her arms around his middle, moving close enough to dig her face into him.