Shawn Mendes Imagines

Cycle

"Why shouldn't I go?" Shawn yelled. I looked at my best friend and let a tear roll down my face, "because she doesn't deserve you." I whispered to myself. I looked down at the floor. "How would you know, your just my friend. Aren't friends supposed to support their friends?" Shawn stepped in front of me and forced me to look at him.

"Your right I'm just a friend, go out with her. I'm sure she will make you so happy. Just remember when she breaks your heart your 'friend' won't be here." I stormed out of his house before he could say anything else.

I put the key into the ignition and sped out of his neighborhood. My phone was ringing off the hook, but I ignored it. He does this so often that I have gotten used to it. We will have a fight and then one of us will call and apologize. But this time, I don't know if I can accept his apology. It might be a warning to move on from him, I mean I've been in love with my best friend for 2 years and he doesn't have a clue.

The red light turned green causing me to turn my attention back to the road. I eventually made it home and ran up to my room, without saying a word to my mom or dad. I collapsed on my bed and cried. It's like I kept all theses emotions inside, but now they were pouring out of me.

Shawn:
"Sorry I can't come to the phone right now, I will call you back as soon as I can." I hung up the phone and threw it across the room. This is all my fault, I should of never said that she was just a friend.

Flashback:
"Shawn- I can't b-breath." She said over the phone. My heart pounded against my chest.

"Y/N nothing is going to happen, you are safe right here. It's just a panic attack. I'm right here." I said wrapping my arms around her. She buried her face in my chest and cried.

"He came back, a-and." She stuttered as she tried to catch her breath. I ran my fingers through her hair and rocked her back and forth. "It's okay." I said soothingly. 

"Shawn please don't leave me." She whispered softly against my chest. My grip tightened, "I won't, I will never leave you." I said. I kissed her forehead gently and laid my head on hers.
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"You expect me to always be there for you, but one day you need to grow up and face the fact that I won't always be there." I yelled. I watched her facial expressions change. A tear fell down her face as she turned around and grabbed her car keys.

"I'm always there for you." She said barely audible before slamming the door.

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"You shouldn't go." She said pushing me away from her. I looked at her with confusion, "why shouldn't I go?" I asked. She looked down at her feet, "she doesn't deserve you." I heard her say under her breath. Then she left, like all the other times.

Flashback over\\

I looked at the white door and back at my car keys. I sighed and grabbed my car keys and jogged to my car.

Y/N:
"I told you he is just a player." My friend said into the phone. I sighed at her words and shook my head.

"You don't know him like I do." I hissed back.

"So, I don't have to. Think about it, he is always with a different girl every weekend, and he is always texting another girl. You should be glad your not one of them." I could hear the annoyance in her voice.

"Yeah," I heard a knock at my door, "I will have to call you back." I said and hung up the phone. I wiped the mascara out from under my eyes and opened the door. My smile faded as I saw Shawn look up at me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I came here to apologize." He said walking closer to the door.

"Shawn, you always do this. We can't just have a fight, then someone apologizes and then we go back to normal. It's like a cycle we can never break. I'm tired of it Shawn, I'm the one who always ends up getting hurt by someone I love." His eyes grew wide when he heard the last 2 words roll off my tongue.

"Y-you love me?" He stuttered. I bit my lip and said, "Well as a friend you know." I lied. He sighed and sat down on the porch swing. I followed him and sat down beside him.
"What's happened to us?" He asked looking off in the distance. I looked at him and shrugged, "I don't know, it's like we are drifting apart."

He looked down at his hands, "I don't want to drift apart, I love you too much, as a friend anyway. You mean a lot to me." Shawn said twiddling with his fingers.

"Shawn, friendships don't always last forever." I said. Hurt flashed across his face. "Are we like 'breaking up'?" Shawn asked. My chest tightened, "You don't get it do you?" I shot up from the swing and paced back and forth. "Shawn I like you okay, I have for years now, but I can't tell anyone because they tell me that your a player and you would never like a girl like me. Which is true." I waited for a reaction from him.

"If I didn't like you I wouldn't of drove here to apologize for being an ass, and I wouldn't do this." Shawn crashed his lips onto mine. Once we pulled away Shawn intertwined our fingers. "I think I love you more than a friend." Shawn said looking into my eyes. I smiled and said, "I know I love you more than a friend." He smiled and kissed me once more.