The Bestfriend's Playlist (Book 1 Completed)

Chapter 14 | Set You Free

"Setting someone free is one of the sadistic choice in our life. But why bother? Why we prolong such agony if we can endure the pain too early whether we like it or not" - unknown

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April 1st.

And I made one of the biggest, and sadistic decision of my life. To let go my friendship with Ford.

This is not an april fools entry anyway. I guess its better to leave his life and to find his own happiness, even if I lose mine.

This is what love is, right? Leaving someone you love if you have to. And I guess, mas makakabuti yun sa career nya kung saka-sakali.

Its Love vs Profession. Just like the separation of the church and the state, sometimes who we are, or what we are is the reason why we choose to leave, or bid goodbye to the one you love even if youre fighting for it. Parang ang tadhana na din mismo ang nagsasabi na hindi talaga pwede, or hindi talaga kami ang nakatakda.

Though, its still debatable. Masasabi mo bang nahal mo ang isang tao kung hindi mo sya nagawang ipaglaban?

For me, the answer is yes. Why? Cause love doesnt need to be fair, right? Sometimes no matter how we fight a good fight, no matter how we win or lose, no matter how we numb the pain. Some people cant love us back the same way. Its unrequited, one sided love but then, we chose it. But just like a normal being, napapagod at napapagod ka din kaya kailangan mo na ding magpahinga.

Yes, magpahinga lang. Pero masisisi mo ba ko kung kailangan ko ng sumuko?

Sumuko sa isang bagay na alam kong wala namang kasiguraduhan. I know, people think that quitters never win, and such. But dont be dumb, or something. You dont know how much he/she exerted efforts and such but still rejected or hurted. Everyone loses interest when they got ignored, or pained.

Allow me to lift you up from an uphill of your misconceptions. Fighthing for the one you love is almost an option. Siguro sobrang masochista mo na lang talaga. But remember, not everyone can endure the pain of love. Yes, everyone is battling with an invisible scars in our hearts. But in some cases, some could be very lethal thats why its better for them to stop and heal themselves first.

Lahat tayo tao, oo. Nasasaktan. Pero hindi lahat ganun kagaling maghandle ng heartbreaks. So stop acting like you know someone's pain.

I was on the bus, on the way to Bulacan for a vacation. As my phone mp3 plays a random playlist. Suddenly, a song of goodbye jives in. Its kinda awkward, and trick though. But this song also depict the situation.

Play "Set You Free" by MYMP while reading this part.

We often fool ourselves
And say that it's love
Only cause when it's gone
We end up being lonely
So how are we to know
That it just isn't so
That we just have to let each other go
There were many times
When we shared precious moments
But later realized they were only stolen moments
So how are we to know
That it just wasn't so
That we just had to let each other go

I remember how giddy I am was nung mga panahong magkasama pa kami ni Ford na gumagawa ng kalokohan and such. Yung panahong hindi pa namin iniintindi yung bukas, basta masaya lang kami. Masaya lang kami na kami yung magkasama. True enough, everything has changed.

Not so recently, I tried to forget Ford, for almost a week. Nung mga panahon na natanggap sya sa audition, yung sabi nya magiging busy sya or what. I made a promise to myself na sasanayin ko ang sarile ko na wala si Ford. But it ended up that promise remains a promise. Hindi ko din naman kasi napanindigan, I hope this day. Sana mapatunayan ko. Sana magawa ko.