The Bestfriend's Playlist (Book 1 Completed)

Chapter 28 | Hectic Schedules

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Challenging.

I guess that is the most appropiate and operative word that best describe my current scenario with Ford.

Its like a human chess game or such. Basta, every moves we make. Dapat namin talagang pagisipan or iconsult muna namin sa isa't isa. No touch moves, as much as possible we think twice, thrice or even undergo a week bago namin pagdesisyonan ang isang bagay. Though yes, I have to admit. Medyo mahirap pero at the end of the day, alam ko naman na ginagawa lang din namin to to keep our relationship growing and working things out.

We dont make it seriously. Very light lang kung paano namin i-handle yung mga problema. May mga hindi man kami pagkakaunawaan, pero we still managed to fix things up bago pa lumubog ang araw.

Masasabi ko na sobrang swerte ko kay Ford. And masasabi ko din na sobrang mature ng relationship namin. Yes, there is no perfect relationship. Lahat naman dadaan at dadaan sa mga conflicts and challenges. Pero nasa inyo pa din naman kung paano nyo yun iha-handle at imama-manage.

Ford and I are goals oriented. Both of us is aiming for success in our chosen track or career. Ako sa pagte-teacher at sya naman, sa pagiging sikat na singer.

Napaguusapan na namin ni Ford yung tungkol sa mga negativity ko before. And siguro, hindi naman talaga maiiwasan yun pero it came to the point na nagusap or napagusapan namin yung time na what if, or kung sakaling darating yung point na isa sa amin ay maggi-give up ng aming chosen career just to keep our relationship still. Kasi darating at dadating din kasi yung point, kung mangyayare man in the near future na mas lalaki yung gap or difference namin ni Ford kasi nasa showbizness industry na sya.

Honestly, ngayon pa nga lang ramdam ko na. Though hindi man ganung kapressure or what. Basta, eto na naman kasi ako. Lumalabas na naman si paranoid inner self.

Magisa lang ako sa school na pinaga-applyan ko. Brigada ekswela kasi ngayon in which naglilinis kami at nagaayos  ng mga classroom na gagamitin para sa start ng school year next week. Gustohin ko mang samahan si Ford sa lahat ng mga gala at tapings nya sa Pinoy Boyband. Eh hindi talaga pwede dahil mas matimbang na sakin ang propesyon ko kesa sa relasyon namin ni Ford. Though yes, alam naman namin na ginagawa namin to para sa isa't isa. No hard feelings naman dahil napagusapan na namin to in the first place. As long as the communication and openess is there, wala naman sigurong magbabago diba? At least hindi yung too mainstream na relasyon to na masyadong pasweet and such. To be fair, parang may mas thrill kasi kapag ganito. Hindi kami ganung magkakasawaan agad, at may excitement kapag magkikita na kami ulet something like that.

Play "Wont Last A Day Without You" by Sarah Geronimo while reading this part.

As Im doing such chores. Nagpupunas ako ng mga upuan at desk sa isang room and then suddenly a random song comes up in my iPod playlist that currently jives in the situation.

Day after day, I must face a world of strangers
Where I don't belong, I'm not that strong
It's nice to know that there's someone I can turn to
Who will always care, you're always there

Seriously. I still dont know how I managed to survive a day without Ford. Sanay kasi ko na laging nagcli-cling sa kanya, kinukurot-kurot yung pisngi nya. Yung magpapacute sya sakin. Kakagatin yung braso nya and random stuffs na ginagawa namin kapag magkasama kami. Though Im not being pretentious, kaya ko naman but at the end of the day, bago matulog. Talagang mapapaisip ka na lang talaga na sana nasa tabi mo lang sya.

When there's no gettin' over that rainbow
When my smallest of dreams won't come true
I can take all the madness the world has to give
But I won't last a day without you