"Cause Im a grenade, one day Im gonna blow up, and I dont wanna hurt you" (NV) Hazel Grace Lancaster (The Fault In Our Stars)
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Habang palabas ng pinto si Ford. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero parang biglang may nagudyok sakin na kumanta. Ganun naman kasi talaga diba, kapag hindi mo mailabas yung gusto mong sabihin. Minsan mas nadadaan pa natin to sa pamamagitan ng musika.
Play "Before it Explodes" by Charice and Bruno Mars while reading this part.
It's not a question of love,
Cause our love has never changed.
But all the little things keep piling up,
And life keeps getting in the way.
Siguro naman hindi kami magsisisihan ni Ford dahil naghiwalay kami. Wala naman kasing nagbago, mahal ko pa din naman kasi sya. At alam ko na mahal nya din ako. Pero may mga bagay talaga na hindi na natin dapat itanong pa. May mga conflicts and challenges talaga na darating na parte ng isang relasyon.
Don't make this harder than it is,
We both knew it'd come to this.
Better now than in a year,
With lots of tears,
And we both hate each other.
The fuse has already lit,
So how about a final kiss?
And just let it go.
Pero in the first place, alam naman namin sa sarile namin ni Ford na mangyayare at mangyayare tong bagay na to. Lagi na din kasi namin tong napaguusapan pero why bother, I guess mas mabuti na din na mangyare tong bagay na to na mas maaga at napagusapan namin ng mas maayos kesa dumating kami sa point na we put our relationship in vain at kamumuhian namin ang isat isa dahil sa aming mga shitty excuses.
Stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
Before it's out of our control.
Let's stop the madness,
Before it explodes!
We gotta let it go,
Before it all explodes.
Im like a time bomb.
Im about to explode. Syempre bago mangyare yun, I have keep away myself to minimize the casualties that will be damaged. And isa na dun ang layuan si Ford.
Yes, masakit sakin na layuan sya pero it doesnt mean na hindi ko sya mahal, or nagkulang ako and such. I love him even though it literally kills me. Sino nga ba may gusto na layuan mo yung taong mahal mo diba?
But then, I have to face this sadistic decision. Eto na ee. Siguro rehearsals pa lang yung una. Pero ngayon, eto na yung main event.
Kailangan, as much as possible itigil na namin to. We have to quit playing games. The rules has been changed. And the game just got bigger and bolder. Hindi na kasi to yung typical scenario na usual na napapanuod or nababasa ko lang. This is my own tragic love story. Perhaps, a beautiful disaster kung sakali. Kasi alam ko naman na ginawa lang naman namin to kasi alam namin na yun ang tama. At alam ko sa sarili ko, mas aangat pa si Ford sa career nya na wala ako sa tabi nya. Albeit.
Some things we won't understand,
And we're both so tired of being misunderstood.
So let's just turn and walk away,
And hold on to what was good.
Out of nowhere. Si Ford yung kumanta nung part na to. Napatingin ako sa likod ko kasi sa buong akala ko, umalis na sya ng apartment ko.
Nakatayo lang sya sa may pinto habang kumakanta at may bakas pa ng luha sa mga mata nya na nakatingin sakin.
Don't make this harder than it is,
We both knew it'd come to this.
Better now than in a year,
With lots of tears,
And we both hate eachother.
The fuse has already lit,
So how about a final kiss?
And just let it go.
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