Screaming in the Dark (Finished)

Chapter 150

I had managed to talk dad into letting me stay home for a few days. I was not ready to come face to face with Scotts pack. I did not know what to say to them. I spent three entire days at home hiding from the world under the blankets of my bed. I had no energy or motivation to leave the comfort it provided me. As time went on I found myself hoping that someone would show up. Someone would come to see how I was doing. Truthfully I missed them. But no one came.

I gave up on the coming to check in on me and started to hope that they would come and yell at me. I just wanted them to come. To know they had not truly abandoned me. But by the third day it was obvious they wanted nothing to do with me. They had iced me out, which hurt knowing that if Scott cared enough to come the rest of them would. SO even my own brother wanted nothing to do with me. Even Derek was nowhere to be found. He would not answer my calls or text. The only person who I had heard from was Peter who had come to gloat about how he saved my ass bye getting rid of the evidence. He was very underwhelmed when I told him I had already figured out that was him. I thanked him and he was on his way never to be heard from again.

So when my dad asked if I wanted to go to school I decided why not. If they did not want to face me, well to bad. They would have no choice but to confront me if we were stuck in school together. I just wanted closer, to know what they are thinking. If I had a chance to fix it or if they have given up on me. And I was going to get my answers today.

I pulled on a pair of black jeans and a grey hoody and headed to the door. Dad drove me to school. He even dropped me off at the front door, probably wanted to make sure I actually go inside. It was apparent for the second I stepped out of the car that this was a mistake but it was too late to turn back.

Every eye was on me. Every kid stopped what they were doing to watch me walk across the lawn to the front door. I looked up at a few who I had been friendly with before and they would all instantly look away. It's obvious that they all had heard what happened and even though there was no evidence to place me there everyone was scared. They all wanted a look at the animal who killed a bunch of people but did not want to get caught looking.

I felt like a goldfish who was stuck inside a bowl being watched by every kid who happened by. I couldn't breathe, I was holding my breath as I walked forward. I felt truly uncomfortable and I was starting to wonder if coming in so soon would be worth seeing Scotts disapproving face that would be waiting for me.

I tried my hardest to shut myself down as I walked in threw the doors to see a hall full of kid's part to let me pass. I thought this would hurt my feelings but in truth I did not care. I was numb to them. They were not the reason I was here. Dealing with the stairs and whispers would be a worthy sacrifice if I could just find anyone from the pack.

I started to panic as I walked by all there lockers and did not see anyone. I started to move through the halls faster. I bumped into a kid knocking him over. When he saw it was me he said sorry and ran away. I headed to Scotts first period and he was not there either. It was in this moment that I really started to panic. I had not realized until right now how much I needed this. I needed to see him. I need his help. Him and his pack that's what they did they helped people. I was completely lost in my own darkness. I was in hell and I needed a friend. A friend to do anything to pull me out of this. Tell me it was going to be okay, forgive me hell even yell at me. I just needed to know someone cared. I wanted to yell but I couldn't find my voice. So I turned and started to make my way to the nearest exit.

Once outside I took a deep breath of the fresh air. I did my best to slow my breathing back to a normal rate. This was a mistake and all I wanted was to go home. They weren't hear and they did not care about what happened to me anymore. I just want to go home I thought.

The next thing I knew I was no longer standing outside of my school but in a building hall way. I looked around and it was easy for me to realize I was standing outside Derek's loft. I was home.