Mello's First Love

What If?

Y/N pov

I went into our room where he was sitting at the edge of the bed. I knelt down before him and did as he asked.

I lay on the bed beside him after, thinking of all the things I'd planned to say to him, how I hoped he'd react and how I wished it would fix things between us.

But what if I said all those things I wanted to say and it made no difference? I already felt completely destroyed, but I couldn't let go either.

I couldn't be without him, but what if I stayed and nothing changed?

I turned to look at him. He was asleep already. Why did he have to be so damn beautiful? Why couldn't I make anything work?

I know he needed to work on the Kira case, but I needed him. I'd be with forever, but he didn't seem to care anymore.

What the fuck should I do?