Mello's First Love

Open Road

Mello pov

I woke up in tears and calling out her name again.

"Where did my love go?
Cry her eyes
Where did my love go?"

I was distracted from my thoughts by the sound of shrieking. I ran out of my room towards the sound and found an excited Lawliet.

"Light just called and asked me out on a date! I knew there was still hope for us!"

He went to hug me but I side stepped to avoid him. I went back to my room, grabbed my biking gear, keys, chocolate and got the hell out of there.

I stopped to eat some chocolate and put the rest in the bike cubby hole (as Matt and I called it) Then I got on the bike and started the motor up.

I went for a long drive to clear my head. I was mad at Light cos he was a douchebag, I was sure he was Kira and he was messing with L now, knowing that was exactly how to hinder the investigation. And I hated L for falling for it. As long as he held a candle for Light, he wouldn't do his work.

But I realise now that I'm no better. I haven't been doing a thing either, except feeling sorry for myself. She's gone and I can't bring her back. I can't forget her but I need to let her go so I can do what I was put in this world for.

I have to catch Kira, no one else will. Matt is too lazy and I don't pay enough attention to Near to know what he's doing about it. I'd never work with him anyway.

I know it will break L's heart but he has to accept the truth. We are the Wammy's boys, there's no room for romance in our world.

I stopped to cry again. I want to hate L for this but I can't. I want him to be happy, but I have no doubt that Light is Kira.

"Get away
You can't stay away"

I realised I was on the side of a cliff and my heart sank as I looked down. I had gone up on that roof to see her last view, never alone, in case I didn't make it back alive.

"No time to say goodbye"

I had to move on, I had to.

"But how can you let her go?
Let her go"

Life went on without her, and I'd have to too.

"No, you can't heal the pain
Better heal your heart"

I had ran out of both thoughts and tears. I had to get back. I'll get Kira and make Y/N proud. And then I'll help L deal with his heartache.

"No, you can't save the world
Better save your heart"

Well no, it can only be the other way around now.

I blessed myself and started the motor up for the long ride home.