Mello's First Love

I'll Die My Own Way

"Once dead, they can never come back to life."

(Final rule in the Death Note)

Y/N pov

I sit with my knees up against my chest and my arms wrapped around them. Tears stream down my face and I hold his cross tightly in one hand.

I always wear the red rosary beads here. Ever since I was buried with them.

I want to go back. I want... I need... Mello... I miss you... I love you and I'm sorry, I'll always be sorry.

I can see him now. He's crying in his sleep again and calling out my name.

I cannot answer. I am dead.

I'm not a corpse here and I'm not a soul. There is no soul, there is nothing but nothingness.

I'm just here with my own endless thoughts and a world I can view but cannot reach.

Nothing has changed then. That was how I spent most of my life too. It seems that how one lives on Earth just continues here.

Is this my eternity? Stuck with the one person I hate the most? Myself. If I'd known, could I have changed it?

Talk about famous last words.

My laugh echoes bitterly through nothingness.