Mello's First Love

God Only Knows

I sat on the rock, sulking, while Mello stood as far away from me as possible with his back to me. Rem returned after a while.

"There is one thing. You can become an angel or a ghost instead."

"I want to be an angel." Mello answered straight away. "I already killed enough people when I was alive."

"I'm staying a shinigami." I said.

"This means you won't see each other again."

Neither of us spoke.

"Ok then, Y/N, do you have any last words for Mero?"

"Yes, fuck off." I replied bitterly.

"Are you really sure you want to leave it like that?" Rem asked.

I nodded as tears fell down my face.

I saw a shadow over me and assumed it was Rem, but I looked up to see Mello stood there, also in tears. He sat beside me on the rock, but turned away from me.

"You asked why I followed you here. You were my first love, my only love. You're my whole world, there's no world for me if you're not in it. I thought I'd go to Nothingness and stop feeling the pain of losing you. I didn't know I'd see you again and I was so happy when I did. But it seems you don't even want me here now."

I turned and put my arms around him.

"Of course I want you. I'm sorry you died because of me. I'm sorry I died. I did it on impulse and I've regretted it ever since, because I left you. I'm so sorry."

He reached up and held one of my hands that was wrapped around his shoulders. We sat like that for a while, then we lay down to rest. His head was on my chest and I played with his hair. He pulled part of my shirt aside so he could kiss my shoulder, then he nibbled on it, making me laugh.

"Silly Mello." I whispered.

"I love you." He whispered back, then closed his eyes and fell asleep.