Taekook Oneshots

Grow as we go

You say there's so much you don't know
You need to go and find yourself

"Look, I just don't feel like I can grow anymore next to you. That's all there is to it. And anyway, we're kids, hyung. It wasn't going to last forever."
"So you just got into a relationship to try it out, huh? Am I just an experiment to you?"

He steps back, eyes wide and guilty, hands held up in surrender. "Hey, no, that's not what I meant. I just need some time to develop as a person on my own."
"And you think I'm gonna expect a shitty excuse like that, Kook? Just say you don't want me anymore. Don't give me some dumb reason, just be honest with me."

You say you'd rather be alone
'Cause you think you won't find it tied to someone else

"You weren't a joke to me, Tae. I do love you. But I need to find myself and I can't do that with you. What if I make some sort of assumption based on what I know from you? I need to be my own person. You always said how important independence was with self discovery. Why can't I follow my own path for a change?"

He shakes his head, turning his face away, and for a moment my heart feels like it's going to fall out of my chest. He can't leave me. We've been a thing for years. Best friends before that. He was able to grow up with me in the past. So why can't he do that now?

Who said it's true,
That the growing only happens on your own?
They don't know me and you

I can't change his mind. He's stubborn, my boyfriend. I know that. "Fine, Kook, but remember that I'm always here for you, even if you don't want me anymore. Just invite me to your wedding, yeah? I don't want to just be forgotten."

He manages a sad smile, stepping forward and enveloping me in a familiar hug, the usually comforting feeling becoming bittersweet when I realise that this is the last time it'll happen. We're over, and all because he believes he needs to mature and become his own person. But people can change surrounded by others.

"I'll never forget you, Tae. I'm sorry."

I don't think you have to leave

I watch him go, tears pricking at my eyes, but I won't let them fall until he's gone. There's a physical pain in my chest as he walks out of the apartment, and for a moment my legs feel like they won't hold me anymore. After all, what more do I have in life without him? We've been a team for so long, and now he's broken that without any explanation.

If to change is what you need
You can change right next to me

"Fuck, why do I still love you after you broke me into pieces?" I murmur, closing my eyes as they grow warm with tears, as I find myself curling up on the sofa, pathetically holding a cushion. I can barely believe that he can't see himself evolving by my side. That's what he managed to do before. And now he's throwing away everything we built together. Over what? A fear of breaking my heart later on?

Bit late for that now, isn't it?

When you're high I'll take the lows
You can ebb and I can flow

I don't think I'll find anyone like Jeon Jungkook. He gets me, he really does, in every way, and he made me feel like someone who'd earned the right to be happy. A right that's been taken away now that he's walked away from it all, favouring chasing something he doesn't even understand yet. It's harsh, and it's painful, but I know that he is trying to do what's best for the both of us.

He just doesn't know that he always was the best for me. It's that simple. It really is. We fit together like puzzle pieces, and our families truly worked together, all friends.