Bnha One Shots [REQUESTS TEMPORARILY CLOSED]

Don't Dare Die Dumb Deku

Requested by @Tom_Holland_Is_Cute

Bakugou x Midoriya

Deku 'dies' by the hand of the League but is forced to write a suicide note to avoid suspision. His boyfriend is devestated by the news, unable to move on when his body is not even found...

(Also the letter is sooo bad but that has a reason lol)

Crying with the death note in his hands, the paper wrinkled and covered in tear stains. That's how Bakugou Katsuki spends most of his time right now. It was a letter written by none other than Midoriya Izuku, his boyfriend. The broccoli took his own life... He just couldn't keep on living like this any longer...

But why? Why did Kacchan never see his sweet little bean was suffering? How could he not have noticed? Deku seemed so happy... They were happy... Right? Well, apparently not... He took a shaky breath, letting out a small cry as he read the letter again.

Thank you for all the memories... Holding them in my heart, I know I'm not worth all the pain I have caused. Everyone will be better off without me...

Letting go may be one of the hardest things I've done up until now. Ending my life... And leaving everyone I love and hurt behind. Questions? Understandable, I guess... Everything just got to much...

Caring about a loser like me was a mistake. All my life is just one big mistake... Pettied by those around me. Told to be too weak for this harsh world, quirkless no less. Unequality, I've always known that would be my downfall. Rather than becoming a great hero, I've always been doomed to fall. Everyone has always told me my whole childhood long... Don't chase foolish dreams, you'll never be able to realise them.

Maybe I shouldn't have tried? Ending it right there, when everyone told me so?

Had I known then what I know now... I would've never walked this path of pain and suffering. Disorder. Death. Every hero who rises is faced with at least three villains in their place. Nothing I can do will change this unfair and cruel world...

But I tried anyways... All just to fall onto the stone cold ground. Suffering the fate every hero suffers. Eventually they all fall and lose, it's fate. Maybe it sounds too cruel that way, yet that's how I percieve things. Everthing is build to break. Nothing lasts forever. The end is inevitable.

But know that I loved you. All of you... Remember me and hold our precious memories in your heart, as will I.

He didn't understand... None of it made any sense... But it was Izuku's handwriting, no doubt about it. Why would he ever think aiming to be a hero is a mistake? That all he'd face was pain and suffering? What about everyone else? His friends? Family? Kacchan..? The blonde wiped his tears away, closing his tired eyes for a moment. They didn't even find his body... How could he believe his Deku was dead when there was no body?!

Nothing made sense!

This stupid letter that didn't sound anything like his boyfriend! His sudden disappearance! This fucking note that came out of nowhere! It was found in Deku's room but Kacchan could swear it wasn't there the last time he's been there when Midoriya was already missing!
"Aaah!" he screamed, almost burning the damn letter as smoke arose from his palms. There had to be something more! Something! Just... This can't be it... R-right? Izuku was his world... His reason to become the number one hero... His reason to smile, his everything...

Midoriya...

Why..?

Why take your own life but tell everyone you love them? Why distancing yourself, saying you cause pain, yet tell us to treasure the memories..? So many contradictions and nothing makes any sense! Fucking hell! Katsuki angrily wiped fresh tears away, staring at the letter as if trying to see something he hadn't seen before. A secret message, maybe? Was that his grief talking? Is this denial? It must be...