Bnha One Shots [REQUESTS TEMPORARILY CLOSED]

Beautiful?

Requested by @FrRosezen007

Bakugou x Midoriya kinda?? More bromance than romance

One shot based on the song Beautiful? by Illymation.

!! Trigger warning !!

ANGST

Deku sighed as he strolled around the dorm in the middle of the night, music in his ears as he walked. He couldn't sleep. He'd been overthinking things again... Staring up at his ceiling, making his mind wonder to places it shouldn't go. So now he was on his way to the common room, wanting to grab something to drink and maybe a small bite to eat to distract him from his self destructive thoughts.

I fall apart on the floor in the kitchen

He froze up at the lyric as he was just about to enter the kitchen. Ironic, isn't it? He glanced down at his phone, frowning.

"Didn't I delete this song from my playlist..?"

None the less, it continued.

You're always there, I don't wanna make you listen
I'd rather do it on my own, try to fix it
Cuz maybe this time it'll be different

He paused it, pulling out his earplugs and placing the phone on the kitchen counter. That song was a little too real for him right now. He wasn't sure if he could take listening to it. Not without bursting out into tears at least... Only one of the few reasons he deleted it from his playlist, or so he thought. He didn't understand why he paused it instead of jut skipping over it... Maybe because it was too real to ignore?

It's true, those words hit him hard. Midoriya had been struggling with himself for years now. He'd been beating himself up about the smallest things, his anxiety getting the better of him most of the time, resulting in the stuttering mess he'd become. He was still a kid when he realised why he wasn't fighting back against Kacchan whenever the blonde beat him up. It's because he thought he deserved it... For being weak, quirkless... He was pathetic, a true disgrace.

At some point, Kacchan's beatings weren't enough anymore. Izuku sighed, slumping down against the kitchen wall, rubbing his hands over his face, trying not to cry. The green head started cutting when he was 12... Self-harm, on top of the shit he already dealt with on a daily basis. He never told anyone, not even his mom, even though she was always there for him.

He had a feeling Inko knew about it though... But he much rather tried to get through his problems alone, without disturbing her. Without her having to spend time on a worthless son as him... He slowly reached for his phone, plugging his headphones in again. He pressed the play button carefully, as if it was made of glass. As if it was as fragile as he was...

You know, I've been burned before
You walk over to my door
Late at night when I knew better
The air was getting colder
You saw what I did to my shoulder
Late at night when I knew better

Izuku remembered Katsuki finding out about his problem in middle school. It was a week after the sludge villain incident. The ash blonde stopped bullying him and he missed the beatings he used to get. He wasn't used to being treated that way... To live without pain... He couldn't supress the urge to ground him, to hurt himself. So that's how Bakugou found him, in the school's bathroom, cutting himself in the arm.

But you say
You're beautiful
And who'da known that I'd believe it?
Beautiful?
But that's the way it goes
That's the way it goes

He remembered it so clearly... How Kacchan pulled the blade from his hand and franctically started cleaning up the cuts while cursing and scolding Deku. Izuku was crying, like he always did whenever the blonde yelled at him, but also because Bakugou interrupted him. Doesn't he realise that the pain grounds him..? That it makes him feel a little bit better about all this misery..?