német napsugarak - versek

because you do

"You're in too deep this time, you know that?"
"I know, I know."

But I can't see the sun through the storm,
This feeling in my chest, the drugs I crawl.
I don't know how to make things right anymore,
You used to hold me so thigt and now you're gone.

You were the reason why I could be so strong,
I stayed clean for months, so long.
And now the hope faded away with your voice,
Every responsibility, everything in my hands, my choice.

I don't know how to be with myself, let alone with someone else.
My poetry, the wounds on my arms, my empty eyes, it tells.
My white lies that came out from my mouth, that I'm sober.
That was our night when you told me between us it's over.

And now I'm sitting on a bench somewhere in the middle of the night.
Waiting for you to call me home but that isn't right.
Not for you, I used to hurt you so bad,
I couldn't make you happy, you were always sad.

Sad to see me through going through hell,
I started to disappear and in darkness to fell.
Letting you go is harder than the cold turkey,
But at least anymore you don't have to worry.

"If I could change me, I would.
But not because I wanted but because you do."