német napsugarak - versek

C'est la vie

All of these feelings just keep
becoming poems about you.
I'm just standing there
don't know what to do.
I try not to admire you.
But how could I not?
If I get lost in those blue eyes it feels like I'm swimming in the ocean under the stars.
There cannot be any more beauty on earth.
I know, I am the worst.
I keep falling in love with the hopeless.
I keep writing like I know where to start.
And you?
If you only knew what kind of feelings fly through my veins:
you would be just scared,
maybe disgusted?
Could never feel the same way.
Because you and I, we are girls,
And girls should not want other girls.
But I've always been this way,
And I've always wanted to be a man.
So I can have what they have.
To be loved by girls. To be normal. I guess?
I wish I could be enough to show you how much of a miracle your smile is.
It makes me every time do the same,
Like there's no one other in that room.
To tell the truth,
To confess some dark secrets of my view:
I just want to kiss you,
like I've never done before
with anybody
And love you,
like I know how to love
and be loved
I guess, C'est la vie.