német napsugarak - versek

The bastard

So I'm an addict, I've been for years and that's what I'm gonna stay for a life,
at least that's what I heard as a patient from the doctors mouth.
And believe me I tried to stop and get on the good way,
Make the good choices and stay on the lane.
But I didn't think I was enough for this life,
I thought when they tried to help it was just a lie.
Recovery what a coward, then I realized I am the bastard.
The bastard who didn't believe she was worth recovery,
So after many relapses I see I still need a lot of therapy.