Samantha's Marriage Proposal ★

Sixty Five

Chapter Sixty Five

"You're awfully quite" puna ni Anton sakin habang pinapakain ko si Erysha ng breakfast.

Di ako umimik at tinuloy yung ginagawa ko.

"Samantha napipikon na ko ha! Ilang araw ka nang ganyan pagkauwi natin ha!" Angil nya. Napatingin tuloy sa kanya ang paslit

"What do you want me to say?" Matamlay na tanong ko sa kanya.

"Fuck you!" Tumayo na sya saka nagwalk out.

Napakagat ako ng labi saka ngumiti sa anak ko.

Sorry Anak. Di kita mabigyan ng buong pamilya

Coz even if i married your father i'll only be leaving the both of you with a lifetime of misery.

Pagkatapos kong pakainin si Erysha ay nag ayos na ko para mga importanteng lakad ko ngayon.

I have to meet the family lawyer to fix everything.

I have to fix everything before i go.

I dont know how to tell my family that i only came back to say goodbye forever.

Napakagat ako ng mariin sa labi para pigilan ang luhang gustong sumungaw sa mga mata ko.

I was ready for this i just dont know where to start saying goodbye. Or how i can say goodbye without hurting anyone.

Paano ba kita iiwan anak?

Tell me how i can go without hurting for you.

I said No to Xander once again.

His pain will always be a nightmare for me.

The way he looked at me as tears started falling.

Asking me questions i cant even answer

Coz the whole of me will always say yes to a lifetime with Xander.

But i dont have that lifetime anymore...

Mariin kong pinunasan yung luha sa mata ko.

Why do good girls go to heaven early? Am i one of them?

And How can i explain to him and everyone else that

I'm just here to say goodbye and teach them how to
live without me.

Napaiyak na ko

Ayoko pang mawala, ayoko pang umalis, pwede pa bang mag extend? I've been a bitter daughter i know but can i get a second chance to life, Lord? Coz i dont know how i can keep up in heaven knowing that i'm leaving my family behind with full of misery. Please Lord. Parang awa nyo na. Paextend pa ako kahit isang taon nalang.

Ganto din kaya yung naramdaman ni Lala nung mawawala na sya. Did she saw it coming? How many years did she prepare for it?

Masama pa rin ang tingin sakin ni Anton paglabas ko ng unit.

"Stop it Anton"

"You fvcking stop it Samantha. Hindi kita maintindihan" sigaw nya saka nangigigil na tumayo

"Hindi ko pinapaintindi sayo Anton!" Sigaw ko sa kanya pabalik at mabilis na pinunasan ang luhang tumulo sa pisngi. "You dont know how fvcking hard it is for me to say No again!"

"What fucking stopping you! Tangina naman Samantha! I was there when Xander lost it! Ipaintindi mo sakin kasi tangina ang tagal mo na siyang pinahihirapan!"

"No Anton! I dont owe you anything!"

"Yes you do you fvcking bitch! You owe us! We were there for you! We were your family. You fvcking broke our hearts when you left! Tangina mo Samantha! Tangina mo! Hindi mo alam kung anong pinag daanan namin para makita ka! You cant go breaking hearts like that you fvcking bitch! You dont!" Tuloy tuloy na tumulo yung luha ni Anton. "Tangina mo. You dont allows us to be there for you when you've been here for us all along. Wala akong maintindihan. Bakit mo ba ginagawa to?"

"Ano? Dahil alam mong hinahabol habol ka ni Xander kaya you have the guts to break his heart again? Ang kapal ng mukha mo Samantha! He gave you everything! Lahat ng kulang sayo pinunan ni Xander! He made life easy for you" napahikbi sya "he made it look so easy to make you really happy na kahit kami hindi namin magawa yon sayo after all these years. Xander doesnt deserve this! We dont deserve this! You're selfish cunning bitch!"

"Stop it Anton" tiim bagang ko syang tinignan.

"No Samantha i'm not stopping! You dont deserve Xander! You are nothing but a piece of shit you dont deserve anything! Dapat nawala ka nalang at di ka na nagpakita!" Sigaw nya

Napaawang yung labi ko

Fvck that hurts

"I hope you dont mean that" mahina kong sambit

"I mean everything i say Samantha! Sana di ka na bumalik para wala ka nang masaktan dito! We all dont deserve this kind of heartbreak from you!"

"Hindi porket sinaktan ka ni Albert ay ibabalik mo yon sa mundo! Wag mong ibaling kay Xander lahat ng nangyari sayo!"

"YOU FVCKING THINK I'M JUST IN FOR VENGEANCE?!" Manghang napatingin ako sa kanya.

"DI BA YUN NAMAN TALAGA?! Gumaganti ka?!"

Lumipad ang palad ko sa pisngi ni Anton

"Do you really think that low of me?! Pag hihiganti?! Fvck vengeance Anton! You think i'll give back to the world what it has given me?!" Tuloy tuloy na bumagsak ang luha ko. "You were asking me why i did not agreed on marrying him? Do you want me to say yes to leaving him with a lifetime of misery? I'm fvcking dying Anton"

Napasinghap sya kasabay nila Tiffany na kalalabas lang ng elevator.

"What did you say?" Mangiyak ngiyak si Tiffany na nakatingin sakin.