Mess Around

Chapter 56: Fireworks

I'm not sure how long I've been crying in the bathroom for but I think its been a while... i try and calm myself down and pat my eyes with some tissue but the tears just keep coming. I just feel so stupid! I sigh and run my hands through my hair. I can't go back down like this. I need to get out of here. Theres a knock on the door.

"Yeah?" I call out, feeling a bit panicked.

"Are you alright Sam?" Jace asks behind the door.

I sniff and wipe my eyes.

"Yeah... I'm fine."

"You've been in there a while. Are you sure?"

I sigh and look at myself in the mirror.

"I'll be down in a second." I try not to choke up.

"Ok."

I hold my face in my hands and take a deep breath. Theres another knock on the door. I roll my eyes.

"Yeah?"

"Sam, can I come in?" Alicia calls out.

I frown and unlock the door. She walks in and instantly frowns when she sees me upset. She shuts and locks the door, and then hugs me tightly.

"I'm such a fucking idiot." I cry in to her.

"No you're not! You weren't to know it was his sister... and I didn't exactly help..."

"Well yeah, but I mean didn't you hear that speech and how much his family love Meg?" I cry. "I felt awful hearing all that gushy shit."

"I know." Alicia frowns and strokes my hair.

"They're gonna have a wonderful life together and start a family." I make a face and sniff. "I had to stand there and listen to all that, and watch Meghan all over Michael."

"I know girl. I can't imagine how you're feeling right now." She sighs and rubs my back. "I think it's best if you go now. I'll come with you. I'll tell them you started to feel unwell."

"But what about Jermaine?"

"I'm gonna be with you right now ok? Jermaine will be fine. I want to make sure you're ok."

I sniff and cry a little bit more while she comforts me.

"Why did I come tonight?" I sniff.

"I thought the same thing when I saw you." Alicia laughs softly.

"I don't know... part of me wanted to see Michael I guess... even though it hurts me." I sigh and pull away from Alicia. "I just got to face facts that he's Meghans."

"I know it's hard Sam, but you have to try and move on from him. All he's done is upset you. He's a head fuck."

I nod slowly and wipe my eyes. She helps me wipe my wet face and tries to fix my makeup for me. I sniff and look at her with watery eyes.

"I'll see you downstairs."

"You sure?" She asks.

"Yeah, just give me 5 minutes... I just need to stop crying." I laugh softly.

She frowns and tucks some of my hair behind my ear, away from my face.

"Ok." She nods. "I'll let Jace know you're not feeling well."

"Thanks." I sniff.

She shows a little smile and wipes away my tear.

"Don't be too long ok?"

"No." I shake my head and show a little smile.

She gives me one last look before unlocking the door and leaving the bathroom. I sigh and lock the door. I close my eyes and lean against it, as more tears roll down my face. I try my best to calm down and stop crying before I leave the bathroom. I stay in here for another 5 minutes or so. I don't want anyone to see I've been crying.