HeartBREAK

Chapter nine

"Okay, show me what you've got!", Alex sighed as Julian and Emma were warmed up. "Okay so what exactly?",Julian asked, obviously intimidated. "Can you do a helicopter lift?", Maia asked. "A what?", Emma scratched her forehead. Oh boy, Alec thought. That was a basic. They would really have to start from scratch with them. "Okay, I'll show you.", Maia Said and Alec followed her. The lift was pretty easy. "But, uhm, how do we do lifts?", Julian asked shyly. Alec exchanged a look with Maia- they had a lot of work ahead of them. "Okay, rule one- do not drop your girl. No matter what, you never ever drop the girl.", Alec said. Maia nodded:" Exactly. I have to trust Alec in order to do all the crazy stuff we need to do. I know he will do everything to ensure I get through the figure safely."  "Trust is the fundament of it all.", Alec continued," Trust and technique. It is our main job to hold the girl, Julian. No matter if we or she struggles, we are the base and have to make it work." "Right.", Emma added," And us, Emma, we have to let them make it work. I had lifts where I had to jump on Alec's shoulders and could've easily fallen over and hurt my head. But I trust Alec so I ran as fast as I could to be able to jump as high as I can and not hurt his back with my knees. If they have to work against our will it gets a lot harder for them. We need to be fearless." Emma and Julian looked startled, but focused. "Okay, Julian, what do you have to do?", Alec asked. "I have to make it work and can't drop Emma.", He replied immediately. "Very well. And you, Emma?", Maia asked. "I have to trust Julian.", She said. "Great. Now that Emma knows she has to trust Julian and Julian knows he shall never betray that trust, let's get going!", Alec commanded. Suddenly, his phone beeped. It was a message from Magnus. "Where are you at?" "In the tumbling room with Julian.", He replied. "Are you okay?", He added. "Not really. Don't worry, we'll talk later.", Magnus texted back and went offline. Alec frowned. That was weird. "Okay, let's go!", Maia Started and Alec got ready to show the lift step by step. "Now you.", Maia Said. Alec's thoughts wandered away- what did Magnus want to talk to him about? "Julian, hold it!", Maia yelled and pulled Alec out of his thoughts. "I can't.", He stuttered. "Yes you can!", Alec exclaimed. He remembered his first days in NYABM. He felt the exact same. But in this very moment Julian let go of Emma's lower leg. "Dammit, Julian! You can't drop her!", Alec yelled frustratedly. Luckily the floor wasn't hard so Emma was okay. "I just couldn't.", Julian started explaining himself but Alec cut him off:" It's hard, trust me, I know, I've been there. But it's all in your head. You tell yourself you can't just because it gets hard. Your body can do more than you think."
Two exhausting hours later Alec, Maia, Emma and Julian were finished. "Damn, I am done.", Maia sighed. Alec nodded. They ended up showing most of the moves so it turned out a lot more physically exhausting than they thought. Luckily they had no more training today. When Alec unlocked his and Magnus' room he got rid of his shoes and dropped his dancebag in the corner. Now he had an hour before Magnus would come home so he decided to take a shower. The warm water running down his back made him relax, the hot steam calmed him down. A few minutes later he exited the bathroom and dropped himself onto his bed. He could already feel he was going to be sore but a quick Instagram break later he started doing his homework. Suddenly, someone knocked at the door and Alec stood up to open it. It was Magnus. "Hey.", He said, "I forgot my keys." "Don't worry.", Alec replied and gently kissed his boyfriend whose hair was wet of sweat. "I'll take a shower right away, don't worry.", Magnus said and immediately disappeared to the bathroom. A few minutes later Magnus came into the bedroom and laid down next to Alec. "So, what was it you wanted to talk about?", Alec asked. He couldn't bear the suspense anymore. "I- I'm just so scared.", Magnus started stuttering. Alec frowned:" Scared of what?" "NYABM has always been such a safe place and now that we actually have to start auditioning for real dance groups, dance on the real stages, get out there... It's intimidating. It's scary." Alec nodded:" I understand that. But isn't that what everyone wants? This is everything we are craving for. The big stages. The dance tours. The famous companies." "I know.", Magnus admitted quietly," but as you said, it's everyone's dream. The competition at NYABM is already a lot but out there, it's insane. Main roles get thrown down the stairs by their understudies so they would get the part, girls would break each other's pointe shoes. It's scary. The dance world is cruel. The world of ballet is hard and some people break under the pressure. And I am scared that I will be one of them. I am scared I will stop loving dance due to all the pressure there. I am scared of losing dance." Alec swallowed hard- he never thought of it from that perspective. And now that it all came together in his head, he was realizing what a huge step Magnus was about to make. "But I'll be with you. Last year you were my support system, this year it's time for me to be yours. I will help you. I will always be the one thing reminding you of why you actually started all this. Trust me, it will all work out fine. You're talented. You're amazing. And you have me to tell it to you all over again every time you need to hear it. You will tendu the flying fuck out of the haters and throw your doubts away with a grande battement. You can do it, Magnus. If anyone can, you do.

Hello! Sooo the real plot is finally kind of starting! Also I know I use some ballet terms here and there. As I myself am a ballet dancer I can't help it but yeah let me know what to think of those ballet lessons with Ally XD. A grande battement btw is a movement where the dancer throws up one leg in the air really high so now you maybe kind of get the image I was trying to create. Please stay safe during corona right now! Take care, l LOVE YOU GUYS❤️