HeartBREAK

Chapter forty-seven

"That was so dope!", Alec laughed as he dropped himself on his bed. "I never thought breakdance would be so much fun!", Magnus cheered and Alec couldn't agree more- he did not expect too much of the two weeks away from NYABM, especially not after he got confronted with the choice he had to make. But the first three days went great! They started working on the final choreography and Alec was honestly blown away- it was so much fun to experience something new. Dance has always been home for him, but this was like finding the key to a room in your hose that has forever been locked. Ever since he has started out with dancing, it was all about control, precision, perfection. It was so cool how with breakdance, there were so little rules to follow. He could literally take a move and make it his own. To his own surprise, his knee even felt better than it did usually. "What are you daydreaming about?", Magnus asked Alec, who grinned. "All the nasty things I wanna do to you." Alec rolled his body onto Magnus' who just replied with a gasp. Alec buried his face in the curve of Magnus' neck, feeling Magnus' shoulders' thin scars on his cheek. He could feel Magnus' warm handy slip under his shirt, trace the lines of his abs, wander down his hipbone until it hit the fabric of his sweatpants. Like a master he untied the ribbons in the front with his other hand and let the fabric slide down and reveal Alec's entire body. "God you're god.", Alec moaned. "I think it's the devil inside of me."

"That was fantastic.", Alec scoffed, his face feeling hot, his cheeks flushed and the blood in his veins pulsing. "I have never seen you so loose...", Magnus remarked and rolled on the side, steadying his head on his palm. "What do you mean?", Alec asked and did the same to look into Magnus' endless brown eyes which seemed like infinite tunnels to a magical world yet to be discovered. "I don't know, it just felt like the past weeks you have been holding yourself back, like you have been keeping something from me, dealing with something, trying to figure it out, whatever it is. I sense those kind of things, Alec.", Magnus replied and frowned as Alec's facial expression changed. Magnus wasn't wrong- there was something Alec had on his mind- his parents cutting him off. Ever since Isabelle told him about what she has heard, he has been trying to reach his parents- no response. The calls never got picked up, all the messages left ignored. He had no idea what to do. And maybe telling Magnus would be one thing he was supposed to do. "There indeed was something I need to tell you.", he said. And then he explained the whole situation, all from when he first found out. "They can't do that to you!", Magnus exclaimed as Alec finished. "Sadly, they can.", he replied, "And there's nothing I can do about it. I mean, I don't even knw if they're serious, I have zero clue of what's going on." "Is there anything I can do to help?", Magnus asked but Alec shook his head- how was Magnus supposed to help when no one even had a clue if the problem was actually serious.

Maureen stepped out the shower and wrapped her hair in a towel- she just had an amazing hot shower after her pole dance class. It was a lot of fun, unlike she expected. Some people were definitely struggling, as well was she. But overall, it has been an interesting experience so far. Maia texted her she was still grabbing some thing in the city and Raphael was seeing Amatis because of his back which meant she had the evening pretty much to herself. Out of routine she bent down to grab the bodylotion from the floor and froze- slowly, she tilted her head to the side, towards the mirror. He could see her tummy rolls more present than ever. Quickly she straightened up again, but the image was burnt into her brain. She could not let go of what she just saw. Like in trance, she started pulling at the skin on her stomach. She looked down at her thighs, which were touching in the middle. She noticed her arms jiggling when she shook the bottle of body lotion in her hands. This was not what she used to look like. This was not Maureen a year ago. She used to be stick-skinny, he ribs showing, arms thin, legs packed with defined muscles, not a pound of fat on her stomach. For the first time in her life she was starting to have something like boobs and even some sort of ass was forming- she was becoming curvier minute by minute. Maureen put down the bottle of body lotion and stepped a little closer to the mirror. She wasn't a stick anymore, she was starting to look like a woman. And somehow, that made her really happy. She forgot everything around herself, it was just her naked body and the mirror. She explored every part of it, every curve, every piece of loose skin, every stretch mark- all those things she never had before. Like an arrow in her head, the thought of Maia shot into her brain. Maia, who was small, delicate, light, muscular. Maia, who had a strong, yet so thin body. Maia, whose shoulder blades were showing when she moved her arms, her bony feet and the rock hard abs. Maia who looked like the ideal of a ballerina, like the perfection everyone tried to achieve. And Maureen has been there, she used to be proud of the body she has built- but somehow she liked the one she had now better. She felt pretty. No, she corrected herself. She felt beautiful. And maybe the one thing standing between her and her happiness, in disregard of her love for it needed to be let go of... 

Hello beautiful people! I am back! Honestly, It was so great for me to take some time off and those past days I have been dying to write- a feeling I haven't had in quite a long time. On Monday I will start my junior year of high school (It's a little different in Germany though) and I am honestly really nervous to see how it's going to go- That means there will probably be a change in my upload schedule but I will let you know then. I just wanted to quickly announce that I am back and that I am hoping you have the best week ever! Just remember you are beautiful inside out, and whatever stands between you and your happiness needs to go- you are perfect and deserve all the happiness in this world.                  I love you so much, XOXO, AllyMaii