Serving the Commander

Cherish her Ben

Smiling down at the sweet grin lining his face "of course I forgive you...how could I ever stay mad at that pitiful little face, who ever said Kylo Ren was scary obviously never had him talking to their vagina begging for its forgiveness." This makes him laugh loudly almost catching you of guard usually he merely chuckles or only laughs a bit but this time his voice fills the room making yourself laugh along with him, suddenly his face turns solid and stern before releasing the band of your pants letting it slap along the bottom of your stomach. "Hey! Ouch!" Grinning he stands lifting off the bed "come on, let us get dressed we have something important to do today." staring at him in confusion "what do we have to do?" Barely answering on his way to the bathroom "weddings in less than a week (y/n), ever heard of rehearsals?" yourself now smiling completely giddy inside quickly hoping out of bed only to instantly regret the rapid movement gripping at your crotch "ouch...okay I get it! I'll take it slow!"

Kylo pops his head out from the bathroom "hmm?" giggling "wasn't talking to you, not everything's about you Kylo Ren." Walking past him into the bathroom feeling his hand sharply smack along your ass "yes it is." he insists, not realizing how much you missed showering with him until the water hit both of your bodies running down his chiseled chest flowing onto your stomach and breasts, the entire time he barely let you out of his arms gently washing your hair, body, even tenderly washing between your legs with the lightest touch you've ever felt from him. At first it was a little weird after all you've never had a man touch you down there without a lingering intent, but it was sweet and romantic the way his fingers gently washed the sticky residue left over from last night each time they passed over the area he would softly question if that hurt or if that was okay. Spending far too long in the shower just holding one another completely connected but so deprived not realizing how badly you could miss someone who had been in front of you the whole time, after finally getting out and dressing for the day the two of you headed down towards the balcony this time knowing his hand laced within yours was intentional and he had no desire to use it as a façade.

Reaching the destination Kylo holds the door open allowing you to walk through, completely astonished at its near finished décor, almost all of the dried dead plants had been removed and replaced with thriving new ones that still bore the beautiful red thorns only this time the fresh plants also had tiny little black flowers blooming all around the vines, there is a long red carpet leading towards to middle window that's been framed in soft lights barely illuminating the spot in first order red. There have also been deep matte black chairs added within the large open space all facing towards the event, each one has ribbons wrapped around the back tied in the shape of kylo's saber dangling near to the floor. Beautiful candles line the carpets path and surrounding free space, while dried red roses hang down from the windows panes framing them with their darkened beauty.

Kylo strides up behind wrapping his arms around your figure softly whispering "they're all the roses I had sent to you while you were in the coma...I had Yasmine save them for me knowing eventually they'd come in handy." Slowly turning around hugging him back quietly responding "I never knew those were from you I always thought..." kissing your forehead "I know..." taking his hand pulling him down the aisle until stopping in the very place you'd be standing in just six days. Looking up into his beautiful warm eyes noticing the pain they once held seemed to completely disappear, his face seemed relaxed and he seemed....happy...genuinely happy. Slowly reaching up brushing a few fingertips along his cheek "Kylo..." his own hand slips over yours pressing your hand around his jaw "yes (y/n)?" Your thumb skims across his bottom lip "the last two weeks seem like a bad dream, as if they never happened...but I want you to know I'm still sorry and I'll never ever hurt you again."

Tenderly kissing the shape of your thumb "I know you won't...I can sense it...I wish you could feel how much I love you the same as I do you. I have never experienced such a feeling (y/n) to know I've finally found what I was missing, finally found someone who doesn't want to leave...doesn't fear me. Even from day one you stood tall not letting me intimidate you, I knew from that very moment you were different. My...mom...used to tell me when I was a little boy *Ben someday you're going to meet someone who drives you completely insane, someone who immediately takes hold of your heart and never lets it go. You'll know when you find her, because she'll love you the same as I. No...Ben, she'll love you more, no matter what happens in life just know when you find her that your mother's love is what guided her in your direction. Cherish her Ben, never let her go and your heart will always be full of hope...* I've always said something brought you to me...I just never told you what..." pausing for a moment his eyes dart out towards the sky almost searching for something familiar yet lost.

Squeezing around him listening to the quickened pace of his heart "I do love you Ben solo...just as much as I love Kylo Ren...with a love so strong it'll follow us forever, even in death my heart will never stop yearning only for you. I can't wait to say I do, to solidify our love to the galaxy...the future is ours with endless possibilities...maybe I could meet your mom someday..." this makes him tense, quickly changing the subject "after we've built our empire maybe we could even have a few kids..." feeling him relax again with a light squeeze and another soft kiss upon your forehead "you'd be an incredible mom, and trust me they'd need you...after all they'd have me for a father." Thinking he was joking almost letting out a laugh but noticing his head hangs a little lower and his eyes gaze at the floor, bending down looking up at him then slowly standing straight bringing his gaze up along with yours "oh Kylo you'll never see your worth the way that I do, but I promise there's still good within you and I know you'd make an amazing dad..." his eyes line with tears only momentarily before he wipes them "No (y/n) I won't...look at me...I'm a monster."

Rubbing away the single tear falling down his cheek "no Kylo... you've never been a monster...only a vulnerable little boy swept up in a mess that he never even started. You can be anybody you want, and I'll never leave your side, the moment my lips meet yours six days from now will create and unbreakable bond, a forever devotion in life and death. In this galaxy and the next, this lifetime and all the ones to come, my heart only beats for you." Gently swiping his beautiful dark hair behind his ear staring deep into those warm pools of honey knowing that they are yours forever "now kiss me...this is a rehearsal after all."

Without hesitation his strong arms scoop you up easily lifting both feet from the ground bringing your lips straight to his kissing so passionately you could cry, holding you in his arms the sun slowly begins to set shining around your silhouettes. Thinking to yourself 'this is my true wedding, just me and you... now and forever...I do Kylo Ren, I do...' not knowing you were projecting the thoughts out he simply replies into your lips "Me too..."