Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 90

Max's P.O.V.

I open my eyes and mam's face met me...All the events that took last night came back to me...With mam dying in my arms..

Tears started pouring out of my eyes...As I stare at my Mam infront of me.. She looks alive to me but my mind was set on when Daniel shot her.. Maybe it was a dream but it looks and feels so real.. Its impossible..

Maybe I'm going crazy... I've gone bonkers...I need my Mam. I need her love, her affection..I need it..But it seems I can't cause the Mam in front of me is just an illusion.. A crazy illusion and I want to stay with it...

Snuggling closer to her, I rest my forehead against hers..I feel her warmth. I closed my eyes shut feeling her touch... I need it cause later on I'm sure it'll fade. Cause the truth is she's dead and she won't be coming back.

I feel a big part of me faded.. Yes Mum is here holding me but it wasn't enough.. There's something about their love that when you put it together the result is the one that satisfies me...And with Mam gone forever..it will never be the same anymore...

This is my fault all of this...If I had just shut the f*ck up then she wouldn't have died.. She would still be here holding me and give me kisses and cuddles.. But no..She's gone..She died in my arms with her last words still ringing in my ears getting stuck to my head...

"Maxene..." I pulled away to see Mam's brown orbs looking at me...I can see the worry, pain,..the same things I saw in her eyes when she's fighting for her life right in my arms...I brought my hand on her cheek as I stroked it ever so gently. Lost in my gaze.. I don't ever wany her to go..I don't want her to leave me..

"D-don't g-go yet please.." I sobbed burrying my face on her neck clutching ghe fabric of her top.. I feel her arms around me pulling me as close as possible... Planting kisses on my head.

"I won't go anywhere baby..." I know it was a lie..A lie to make me feel better...But it wasn't doing me any good..Cause I know what is the truth and the truth is she's just my illusion..

"I-I'm s-sorry..I- miss y-you...Mammy.." I'd totally lost it.

"Babe...What are you saying..Why are you apologizing.." Mam's voice cracked as she tried to pull away but I just held on tighter

..Cause I'm afraid that if I let her go..She would disappear and leave me here.

Aurhor's P.O.V.

Max held on tighter to her Mam like her life depends on it..She had gone mental. That's what's in her head but she didn't care cause if going mental means she would have to see her Mam everyday then she prefer being mental for the rest of her life...

Cheryl was confused, scared, worried, hurt as she watch the state of her daughter in her arms.. She doesn't know how to make her feel better..She doesn't know what to do or what to say cause she doesn't know what happened..But she knows that this is about her dream last night and she's dying to know what it is...

"I'm so- I'm so sorry.."

"Maxene..You have tell us what's going on.." Cheryl try to pry her daughter away from her so they could talk properly but Max was holding on Cheryl.. She really doesn't want to let her go..

"No! Mam please..Don't let go...I -I don't wa-nt you to go.." Maxene's sobs woke up Katy and immediately her eyes set on Max then she looked up to Cheryl raising her brows..Cheryl shrugged a bit as she rubbed Max's back..Katy moved closer giving Cheryl a peck on the lips and rubbed Max's back placing kisses on her head..

"Sweetie..What's wrong?" Katy whispered soothingly in attempt to calm Max down but her sobs won't fade. Instead her sobs are getting louder each time Cheryl would try to get out of her hold..

"M-Mam's...Mam's dead and its all my fault.." Cheryl froze as the couples eyes widen..

That's what she dreamt about.. Cheryl thought.Her mind was all over the place just watching her daughter breakdown in her arms because she thought that she was dead..Well infact she was just dreaming last night..

"Baby..Sweetheart you're Mam's not dead angel..She's here with us.."

"No! She's not..Y-You're just saying that to make me feel better... I-I saw h-how Daniel shot her...then she died in my arms..." She finally let go of Cheryl as she curled up putting her arms around her comforting herself as she cried...

Cheryl's tears came out.. She can't handle the thought of her daughter thinking she's dead.. She placed her hand under Max's chin tilting her head up making Max look at her..

"Baby..I'm not dead..I'm alive." Cheryl said but Max is shaking her head.. Her sobs grew louder as the couple exhanged looks...This was it..Max needs help.. Cause she's gone mad..

Suddenly, the sound of Max gasping snaps the two out of their gaze making them turn to Max who was now having an attack..So Katy shot up grabbing Max's inhaler on the bedside table while Cheryl pull her daughter up taking her in her arms..

"Here babe.." Katy put the inhaler in Max's mouth and pressed on it as Max takes in the gas and exhaled.

"One more" Katy pressed on it again as Max took the gas in before exhaling as her breathing got back into a normal pace but her cries didn't fade and Cheryl had enough..

"Mammy" Max sniffed and Cheryl turned her around taking her face between her hands placing kisses on her face..telling her daughter and making her feel that she's real..that she's not dead..

"I'm here baby...I'm here..I-I'm not dead. Here feel my heart beat." Cheryl grabs her daughter's hand in urgency and placed it against her left chest where her heart is..

Max was tired again and she wasn't working properly.. She looked at her Mam straight in her eyes..

"I'm tired...Mammy please..C-can you stay with us longer...Just until I-I fell asleep..So I-I w-won't have to see y-you go.." Maxene layed back in bed pulling her Mam's pillow hugging it as tight as possible inhaling the scent of her Mam that still lingers on it..

"Maxene...I'm not dead for God's sake." Cheryl hissed but Max was already in her own world..

"Mammy..F-for the last time...I-I love y-you very much.." Cheryl watched as her daughter burry her face on her pillow as tears fall down.. She doesn't know what to do..Her daughter has gone mental..

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"She thinks I'm f*cking dead Katy.." Cheryl mutters as she nurse a mug of hot chocolate in her hands staring at nothing.. Its almost noon and Max hasn't wokdn up yet..so the couple decided to watch something but it seems Cheryl has other plans..

"Babe, she's just stuck on her dream last night." Katy sighed as she turned the TV off turning to her upset girlfriend..moving closer to her taking her in her arms.."She'll forget that when she wakes up.."

"What if she didn't..She will be seeing us as a dead person walking around the house...You were right! That's what you want to hear right?"

"What do you mea-"

"You were right! Katy. Maxene needs help..She f*cking needs help..Because she's gone mental..our daughter is mental." Cheryl placed her mug down the table and walked out to the garden..

Katy immediately followed her seeing her sat on the bench staring at nothing as her tears clings on her face..She was upset with the way Cheryl is acting but she was too worried to mind that..so she slowly sat on the space beside Cheryl..

"S-sorry...I-Its just that-"

"Ssshh...Come here.." Cheryl fell in her lover's arms letting the tears go...

"I understand..But you can't go on yelling at me babe..I haven't done anything wrong.."

"I-I know.I-I'm sorry."

"We'll get through this..Max will get better..I'll go to some Psychologists to schedule an appointment with them..I know its hard but this is for Max herself.."

"I-I just h-hope..She'll be back to us again."

"Me too."

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