Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 64

Katy dragged me to the ICU to see Max..And I was lost in it. When we got there, I stopped infront of the glass door. Pictures starts flooding my mind. Pictures I don't want to see.

"Cheryl..." I slowly look up tears welling up. I can't go on. I don't want to see Max's state. I don't want to see her suffer in my cause.

"Babe..Come on, what's wrong?" Katy held my hand and guide me to the bench on our side sitting us down.

"I-I can't Katy...She wouldn't want me there." I whisper through my tears.

"What are you saying..Of course she wants you there..She needs you."

"Before- before all this happened...we had an argument..."

"You and Max?" I gave her a small nod returning it the same as she gesture me to continue.

"She-told us,no one likes her but...I said otherwise..But then she was turning it to us. I know she didn't mean it..cause I know she's still getting over on what Emily's done to her, but...It really hurt us...I didn't know she was still on that..."

"What did she say?"

"She said...I forgot about her at some point, when the accident happens...Then she--" I can't seem to bring myself to say it. I felt Katy's arms around us pulling us closer,planting kisses on my head trying to give us comfort.

"She what baby..." She's whispering softly stroking my hair. It was calming and soothing and I need it..I know I need it, I need comfort.

Katy's P.O.V.

"She told us..I tried.I tried to k-kill her before...that's why she was still on proving that I really love her...She doesn't believe I love her..." She sobbed totally breaking down in my arms. I didn't know about this. I didn't know they weren't in good terms. People starts turning their heads to us so I hugged her tight covering her face from them.

"Sshh...Baby, She doesn't mean that..She's just hurt from what happened and she needs to let it out... Ssshh." I've mever swen Cheryl this way except when she's having terrible nightmares at night. But today's different. This is not a dream..This is real.

"We are not in good terms Katy. And she's in a f*cking coma.. She might not make it and I can't ever say I love her and hear a response.."

"She will make it Cheryl..Just have hope..She will live.She will wake up..."

"Are you even sure of that..." She whispered against my neck. " Or Are you saying that to make yourself believe she's really gonna make it. That you're hoping that she'll wake up and everything goes to normal.." A tear fell from my eye but I wipe it away. I don't understand what's happening to Cheryl. Its like she's already giving up.

"Hoping isn't wrong Cheryl."

"Even if it already hurts...cause the truth is..Max's life is on the line..Any time she might give up..That there's a strong possibility that she won't wake up anymore. Cause she's tired.."

"Stop it...That's enough..It sounds like you've given up on her Cheryl..Aren't you suppose to stay on the positive side.." I said pulling away holding her shoulders. She doesn't look at me. She drops her head making me sigh. I was about to say something when Daniel came out of the room along with her wife. They turned to us and Daniel glared at Cheryl shaking his head making me raised my brows. Then with that they walk away.

"What's their deal.." I muttered taking Cheryl in my arms again. She pulled her knees up to her chest and I just hold her like that.

"They're blaming us for this.." My eyes widen and I'm in full rage..I only want to have a go at them right now. Why the hell would they say that.

"Hold it Katy...They're right anyways..This is my fault."

"No baby. Non of this is your fault.. Nothing. So stop with the bullsh*ts now..That's enough.." I didn't get a response so I just held her tight making her feel better.

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After hours of encouraging Cheryl to go to Max right now, I had finally dragged her in and we slowly walked towards Max's bed to see Nadine. I let go of Cheryl's hand and walked towards the bed while Nadine went over to Cheryl.

"Hi, baby..your mam's here..We'll leave you two okay. I love you." I planted a kiss on her forehead and turn to the two at the same time Nadine turned to me with a worried look on her face. I glanced at Cheryl to see her eyes are fixed on Max and takes a small step forward. This is my que. I walked over to Cheryl and held her hand.

"We'll leave you two alone." I gave her a kiss on the cheek before turning to Nadine and grab her arm walking away from them.

"Katy, I'm worried about Cheryl." I sighed as soon as we got out the ICU and that's when I decided to let a few tears go just so the pain would go away. I instantly felt arms around me as I burried my face in my hands.

"Sshh..Everything will be okay soon." Okay..That's the complete opposite of what we are right now. I'm just trying to be positive for Cheryl. Cause I know she's very fragile just like Max..And If I won't stay positive for her, no one will..But for how long..

Cheryl's P.O.V.

Here I am sat by my unconscious daughter. Just staring at her as tears flow rapidly down my face. I don't hold her hand..Cause I'm scared, too scared that if I touch her, she'll break..She's so fragile like thin glass.

I still haven't got a word out of us. I just sit here silently watching her chest rise and fall..It was kind of relief to us that she's still breathing, but I know the machines are only helping her..It was minutes later when I decided to speak.

"Hi." It was barely a whisper. There are a  million things I really want to say to her right now but it seems I just can't find the right words. I let out a shaky breath and wiped my tears pulling my phone out and just held on tight to it..

"There are things going through my mind right now and...they're all about you..So many things I want to say to you..I just don't know how to say it." I had a feeling that I needed to explain or to prove to her that I love her more than anything and anyone in this world.

"The day after I left you on a house..It was the same day I got into a problem.. A problem that terrified me for the rest of the year...I went mental,paranoid, crazy and depressed.. Mam wouldn't let me out of the house or even my room. Cause I might hurt someone..I even went into a mental institute and I remember everynighy, I'd scream your name to the heavens hoping you would hear us..." I paused and sniff then wipe my tears. " I think of you every second of the day..wondering where you are..how are you..are you even alive...I stayed there for almost a year and a half...When I got out that's when I decided to be a popstar...So I would have the money and and a reason to travel the world just to find you......I've loved you every single day Maxene and that never change, it just grew..when I found you.." I sighed and look down as my phone lit up a small smile growing on my lips as I saw Max on the lockscreen..It was the photo Katy took the mornong after that terrifying nightmare..This was my favorite picture of all time cause we didn't plan it out.It was a stolen shot but has a strong meaning to it..

"I miss you..."  That's when I totally broke down burrying my face in hands crying uncontrolably...

"I miss you so much..."

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