Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 56

Max's P.O.V.

I'm staring at the ceiling in my parent's arms tangled around me thinkiing how'd my life been.

Even through the struggles and problems, I can still tell that my life is the best. And I'm having second thoughts on wanting to die especially after last night's incident about mam having a nightmare about me already dead.  She won't cope and I can't leave her in that state.

I don't want to die.

I turn my head and looked at mum. The scratch on her face from last night has turned into a dark pinkish tone contrasting to her pale skin. And I know mam woukd be guilty when she'll see the mark she left from last night.

I turn my head to look at mam abd saw her puffy eyes and dry tear stained cheeks. Leading me thinking to what if.. What if mam will be in that state when I die or worse she might slip into depression. And what if mam really got depressed, what will happen to mam's career, what will happen to my parents. I'm sure if mam will get depressed mum won't get to leave her here alone to work in America.

Oh God, I was so selfish that I didn't realize the events that might take place when I'm permanently gone. I'm so stuck up in my own wants that I didn't get to consider the feelings of the people that I already got attached to. I need to talk to my parents about this not just my mum but both of them.

Suddenly, I felt stirring beside me making me look towards mum. Her eyes flicker open and her blue eyes landed on me so I smile at her  which she returned with a smile but flinches and I think that's because of the scratch on her cheek.

"I think we won't forget what happen last night, she left a mark." This made her giggle and gave me a kiss on the tip of my nose.

"Its okay babe. Its not really her fault it was an accident"

"But you should atleast put an ointment to it cause its already in a darker shade of pink." She smiled at me and sat up straight stretching.

"I'll be down. What do you want for breakfast?"

"Waffles" I grinned making her smile sweetly and nodded. She got out of bed and walked out of the room leaving mam and I alone.

I let out a sigh and turn completely facing mam. She moved a little pulling me closer to her making me froze but she didn't wake up which in some way I'm glad she didn't. Cause watching her sleep amazes me. How could someone be so beautiful even when sleeping, Its so unreal.

Then my thoughts went to her former husband. Mam didn't talked about him much but she said she cheated on her many times already. Who would cheat on someone who's beautiful inside and out. A complete b*stard maybe. He's not worth it. I can't imagine what could be mam state everytime she'll found out that he did it again.

Planting a soft kiss on her forehead, I move closer snuggling further curling my fingers into a fist under my chin closing my eyes feeling the warmth of her loving arms around me. A beautiful and amazing feeling just being held by someone who's really important to you.

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Cheryl's P.O.V.

I slowly open my heavy eyes and who I saw immediately sends complete relief into my body and mind. Maxene curled up next to us, her breathing on a steady pace, she's just sleeping. I pulled her closer to us holding her like a mother would.

The dream or should I say nightmare was the worse I've ever had. Even worse than the dreams I had everytime Ashley cheated on us before. It looks and feels so real. I really thought Maxene is dead. I wouldn't cope if ever that's the case. I'll definitely get depressed in the worse way, maybe suicidal.