Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 44

Max's P.O.V.

We're on our way to the orphanage. I haven't spoken a word since I got out of the plane and Kimberley's been asking me questions on why did I come back but I didn't answer her. I was holding back my tears and just stare out the window. I want to just go to the orphanage and locked myself in my room and just break down.

Minutes later, Kim pulled up and I notice that this isn't the orphanage. We're at her house making me turn to her.

"Why are we here?" Its the first words I've spoke since we I got on the plane. She sighed and looked at me.

"I'm not going to let you stay in the orphanage you know. You can just stay here.."

"You don't have to-"

"Your mum said so" She said and that silence me and just nodded. She smiled and got out of the car getting my things as I slowly got out of the car. I feel like an old person. I'm totally knackered. Suddenly, I felt an arm around my shoulder making me look at my side and saw Kim giving me a smile.

"Let's go?" I nodded and with that we walked in. I just want to lock myself in a room and cry my stress out until I'm all drained out and maybe I'd be empty and I won't feel anything anymore maybe that'll be easier.

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As soon as I know that Kim's fast asleep in her room and darkness fills my room, I broke down and I can't seem to stop. All the stress, frustrations, heartaches, hate, harsh words from mam, rejection. I cried about all of them. Its like there are voices in my head that kept repeating them over and over again and I can't take it anymore really.

Maybe mam felt like this when she realized what she's done in the past and started finding for me. Every single day you lose hope on a person or a thing because as days passed by it feels like there will be no change. That you won't find what you're looking for.That its impossible for you to find them.

And I was in that position right now. As days pass by, I'm not sure if mam will eventually remember me. And the worse thing is, I've got months left to live and I want to spend it all with the both of them but how can I do that if mam doesn't even want to talk to me or see me and it really hurts me everytime she push me away or say harsh words to me. I know its not her fault. It never was.

"W-wish y-you'll remember me. E-ven if it'll be a-a short time." I whispered to the air. Pretending I was talking to her. Talking to my real mam.My mam that would tell me everything will be alright. My mam that would hold me as long as she could and say sweet words to me. My mam that was very protective of me and makes me feel special everyday. I want my mam back.

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I open my eyes and I feel worse than I was yesterday. I feel heavy. My body aches, I have a severe chest pain and my head is pounding through my ears. I put all my strength in order for me to sit up. I know I'm probably stupid right now. Forcing my body to move even though I know its very hard and painful but I manage to get out of bed but when I stood up my knees weakened making me slightly fall but I hold on to the wall for support. I slowly walked out of the room and walked through the hallway and that's when the world starts to spin.

"Maxene..." I hear my name being called but I can't seem to turn around. I think I'm going to pass out or something.

"Babe.." I hear footsteps and suddenly a sharp pain shoot in my chest making my hand flew to my chest clutching it and I heard a small scream before darkness took over me.

Cheryl's P.O.V.

We just got off the plane and we already see several paps outside the airport. Luckily, Lily came with my car and the guard escorted us as Katy and I walk through the paps with our fingers interlocked. I don't care if anybody sees us, I don't mind at all.