Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 58

I woke up and my mind was already consumed with the thoughts of the talk with may parents later. I was kind of nervous with my change of perspective but I know, deep in my heart, that I really want to live.

I glanced at the clock to see that its quarter to six, so early for me to get up. I clutch the duvet and pull it closer towards me feeling cold. I can already feel winter coming along.

A heart to heart talk with someone is something I have done before. I had it first with mam but I'm wondering why I'm nervous right now. I'm not the type of person that will get them sit down and talk it out, I'm the type of person that if there's a chance, I would bring that subject up. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing but it doesn't matter.

Right now, Mam has her final recording just like what she told me and t the same time its the girls' rehearsals. She can't make it so she said I'd go with Kimberley to check them out cause mum will have something to do too. So here I am, finding the right time to talk to them.

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Bzzzz Bzzzz

"Maxene,can you get that for us." I sighed and got off the sofa and lazily walk towards the door opening it.

"Goodmorning babe." I gave Kimberley a small smile and gestured her to walk in.

"Where's your parents?"

"Mam's in the kitchen and mum's upstairs in their room." I returned to my seat on the sofa. Kimberley went in the kitchen leaving me in my own thought. Wacky's playing around running like crazy. If I was in the right mood, I would've join the little guy but I'm a bit bothered today.

I don't know why but I suddenly felt down. I can't concentrate on anything anymore, I always stare into space like a lunatic. Maybe I didn't get that enough sleep or maybe because I haven't finished my breakfast. I just remember, I need to swallow five pills today.

"Katy! Can you get Max's meds." I jumped out of my world as mam yelled at the bottom of the stairs. Speaking of which, I'm about to take it.

"Maxene, you need to take your meds. Follow us to the kitchen." I sighed and nodded following her to the kitchen and sat by the kitchen counter where beside me is Kimberley.

"Here's your glass of water.." Kimberley slides it infront of me and for some reason I just stared at it.

"Here's your medicines." Mum said as she walked in the room trying to balance five bottles in her hands. She placed in on the counter while mam sat beside me spinning my stool so I'm facing her. I felt her touch my chin making me look up to her.

"You okay?" I nodded and look away grabbing every bottle taking one pill each. I don't know what's going on cause I used to ignore or avoid these stuff but now, I need them even if they taste sh*t

"Max, just two pills in the morning." I ignore mam and just put all five on the palm of my hand. I need this right now, I need to get better.

"Maxene..there's a scheduled ti--Sh*t" Mam grabbed both of my wrist preventing me from grabbing the glass of water and pulled me out of the stool dragging me towards the bathroom.

"Don't you f*cking swallow them." She hissed. She held my cheeks as she closed the door my heart thumping in my chest as mam pressed my cheeks forcing me to open my mouth. I let out a yelp, taking her chance she removed the pills in my mouth throwing them in the bin letting go of my cheeks.

I was mad. I was raging, I needed that so badly. I want to get better. Tears started forming in my eyes overflowing making them fall down my cheeks out of my frustration as the door open.

"Che-"

"What the bloody hell were you thinking." She yelled at me. Mam haven't yelled at me and some kind of hurt hits me but I didn't care. I wipe my tears forcely and push myself out of the bathroom running upstairs getting Wacky's attention running after me. I ran upstairs slamming the door as soon as Wacky and I got in and collapse in bed