Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 60

Cheryl's P.O.V.

I stare at my fragile girl as she sleeps peacefully in my arms, thinking how hard it is to be in her situation. And just the thought of it brings tears into my eyes. If I could just take the pain away, If I could just heal her again, I would do it in a blink of an eye. She doesn't deserve this.

I wish It was us..It was us in her condition because I was the cause of her pain. I didn't took care of her like a good mother should do instead, I left her. All alone with no one to run to, just because I was drunk.

She experienced growing up with hate throwing at her every single day she lived. She's been rejected so many times and I'm not there to save her, to protect her..to stand up for her. I wasn't there to hold her every single day she cries telling her 'its okay' and 'everything will be okay'..And now, she's suffering not knowing what to do. She wants to live longer but she doesn't know how to do that..She's like living on the line.

At her young age, she doesn't deserve to die. She has dreams she wants to achieve. Moments she wants to happen.Memories to create and treasure for eternity. And I want to see her achieve all that.

"I won't promise you that I could find a donor....But I'll promise you that I will make everyday the best day you ever had.." Tears fall as I planted a soft kiss on top of her head closing my eyes.

"I'm really sorry baby." I won't stop apologizing and I will never stop even if she told me too. Cause sixteen years of being abandoned is unforgiveable. I'm still mad at myself for that seeing the result of what I've done in the past.

"I'm so sorry." She mumbles something which I didn't get before cuddling closer to us,burrying her face into my neck making us put my arms around her tight as I started stroking her brown locks that shines as the moonlight illuminate them.

This is what I've been asking for sixteen years. To be able to hold my daughter like this. And I want to stay it that way..Until forever.

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"So what do you want to do today?" Max had been staring at the telly for hours now, flicking through them channels everytime she gets bored of what she's watching. I want to cheer her up, cause she hasn't said a single word since this morning and its already irritating us.

"Do you want to go to Kimba's" I smiled sitting myself beside her. She scrunched up her nose which gave me the answer making me sigh.

"Want to go to the mall?"

"Too many people.."

"What about the park?"

"Too many kids." I sighed and sit back running out of ideas.

"Want to call your mum?" She shrugged and sat back as she settle down watching a movie, I don't know what is called.

"She's busy in this time of the day."

"Then what do you suggest we f*cking do." I snapped making her turn to us. She then burst out in giggles making a frown form on my face. She then move closer to us resting her head on my lap, my fingers starts to stroke her natural brown locks automatically.

"I don't want to go out...Can we just cuddle for the whole day..A special request from me." A smile slowly crept to my lips. She turns to us and hugged my stomach making me giggle. Max is being all clingy and I love it.

"I love cuddles with you.."She whispers closing her eyes. I draped my arm on her side and lean down to plant a kiss on her head.

"Mam."

"Hmm..."

"I love you.." Its just simple. Three simple words but always had a very huge effect deep in my heart.