Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 5

Cheryl's P.O.V.

I'm so lost. I don't know what to do.How will I tell Max the truth. Earlier, I told the doctors that I'll be taking a DNA test with Max just to make sure and the result is positive. She really is my daughter but I don't know what to do.

I'm here at the shops buying her some food. I decided to just give her the results and explain to her why I did that. I paid for what I've bought and walked to my car. I notice there were some paps watching me but I ignored them and climbed in the car. I start to drive and keep glancing at the brown envelope on the passenger seat feeling nervous.

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Max's P.O.V.

I was staring at nothing when Cheryl came in with a bag on her and a brown envelope on the other hand.

"Hey, how're you feeling?" She smiled as she placed the bag on the table turning her back on me. I didn't answer and just stared at her. She looks a bit uncomfortable. She turned to me and I think she was about to cry. She let out a breath as she sat beside my bed holding a brown envelope. Her eyes filled with tears as she handed me the brown envelope making me frown. I slowly took it and opened it looking at Cheryl who was already crying. I took out what's inside the envelope and read it.

"Babe, let me explain" Cheryl sobbed holding my hand. I felt a pain in my chest as I read the DNA result and tears blurried my vision. I froze tears dropping to the paper. I stared at Cheryl emotionless. Is that why she's asking me that question yesterday. So she'll know what she'll do.

"Max, I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I was 16 stupid. I became pregnant but didn't took care of myself cause I was depressed. A-and I left you outside a house. B-but I regret it everyday." She sobbed desperately. I didn't know what to do as the pain in my chest grew and I know that I need to let it out.

"Can you just leave" I said coldly. She looked at me with sad eyes but then nodded and walk towards the door.

"Maxene, I'm really sorry" And with that, she walked out leaving me alone. I dropped the results to the floor and started to cry. It feels like my life is just a big joke. I'm being played all along. I don't know where I belong. I layed on my side letting the tears fall. In the first place she didn't want me at all. She just said it herself she didn't take care of herself when she was pregnant with me, it only means she wants me to die.

I was crying so hard that I already couldn't breath. I immediately grabbed my inhaler under the pillow and put it in my mouth. I pressed it as I inhaled it and covered my eyes with my arm closing my eyes. I heard someone come in but I didn't move. I just bit my lip trying to stop crying. I can aleady taste the blood from my lip as I sniffed.

I really don't know where I belong. I think I'll just go back to the orphanage and lock myself in my room. I won't fo the operation. I'll leave and they'll not notice a thing. Well, that's where I'm good at. anyway, running away from everything. I'm tired to act like I'm strong even though I'm not. I'm weak and pathetic.

"Hey" Someone whispered but I didn't move.

"I know this is hard, but please give her a chance. She loves you." Love. What is really love. I've never felt love before. I can't breath again so I moved my arm and put the inhaler against my mouth pressing the button and inhaled. I looked at woman infront of me as tears filled my eyes. I pulled the inhaler away and hid it behind the pillow.

"Are you feeling anything, Do you want me to get the doctor." She said as she was about to stand up but I grabbed her making her look at me. I took a deep breath and removed the necklace from my neck.

"Just give this to her" I croaked as I put the necklace on her palm and closing it. I turned my back on her and stared at the wall as I heard the door close.

Cheryl's P.O.V.

I was sobbing when Kimberley came out of her room.

"What did she said Kimberley, tell me" I stood up and faced her. She looked at me with sad eyes and took my hand.

"She wants you to have this." She placed something in my hand. I looked down to see what is it and my world fell down when I saw the necklace.

"No, no. I've got to talk to her" I said but Kim stopped me.

"Leave her alone a bit babe, remember her state" That stopped me. I let out a sob as I fall in Kim's arms. What does this means.

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Max's P.O.V.

I sit here in this dark room staring the wall in front of me. The only light in thr room is coming from outside. I'm fumbling with my inhaler just in case I ran out of breath. I'm so tired, tired of being hated, tired of crying, tired of pushing other people away. I want to know how it feels to be loved, cause I've never experience that before. I want to know how to care, how it feels to have friends and a family. Even though Cheryl threw me out when I was a baby, I think Cheryl really regret that because the way she acts lately I figured she cared. Who would go through a storm just to find me and that's the first time someone did that for me.

I heard someone come in and I immediately know its her but I didn't move, I continued staring the wall as I heard her sniffs.

"Maxene..." She really does likes calling me that even though I already told her it's only Max.

"I-I'm really sorry." She cried making eyes filled with hot tears daring to fall.

"T-The next morning after I left you. I was already sobbered but I don't remember what I did until my mam said to me that you were gone. I went back to the house where I left you but the family who lives there moved out already. I swear I searched everywhere but I can't find you. I-I thought you were dead but I didn't gave up. When I got famous, I performed in every orphanage in town hoping you'll be there then I performed at the small orphanage out of town and that's the first time I heard your voice when you shut us up an-"

"Stop" I whispered, I've heard enough and I understand.

"I'm sorry Maxene, I love you. I do" There's that word again love. She walked closer to me and I gripped on my inhaler.

"Can you forgive me. I love you Maxene and I don't know how will I cope if I lose you again" Tears fell from my eyes as I continued to stare at the wall. I felt her arms wrapped losely around me like expecting me to push her away but I didn't cause It feels good. I slowly leaned in to her. She held me tighter as she planted kisses on top of my head and saying sorry repeatedly. I let her do them cause I'm tired. Maybe things could be fixed. I hope what I'm doing is right.