Sirens (Cheryl fanfic)

Chapter 30

Cheryl's P.O.V.

Empty. Its all that I feel. Her words echoes in my head over and over again.

I'm dying

I have so many questions. Questions that no one can answer not even Max. Questions that's been invading my mind since I heard the words that would kill me for the rest of my life.

What have she done to deserve this. Sometimes I just wish I haven't met her if she'll just be taken away from us again. Time. I've just been with her for a short period of time. That's not enough.

"Babe" I hear Katy whispered softly. I haven't spoken a word for hours now just staring at the food that Max made us for breakfast. I know Simon might be exploding right now but I don't care. I'm not going to work, I'm gonna stay here and try to figure out how I can solve this problem.

"Babe, I told Simon you're not going to the auditions." She whispered but I didn't made any movement of agreement.

I should be crying right now and dissolving into tears but I'm just sat here doing nothing. I guess I'm all out of emotions.

I caused this. I gave her the disease. I'm slowly killing her. I'm the reason behind her hardships and now I'm going to lose her...Forever.

I won't be able to see her face again, her smile, those green eyes. Hugs and kisses, I love you's, cuddles. How can I cope without them.

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Max's P.O.V.

Sitting on the bed with the notebook in my hands. Rereading my list. I crossed #2 cause I've broke that. I told my parents already. I've been in my room for hours waiting for someone to enter the door and just tell me that everything will be alright.

Honestly, I regret telling them. I wish I just lied but mam caught me off guard. She wants to know the truth but when I told her what's my problem she eventually doesn't want hear it. Cause truth hurts.

I grab my recorder that I told mam to buy cause I know I'll be needing it soon and turned it on and pressed record. I guess first apologies up.

"Hey guys, sorry for bottling up. I love you guys so much that it hurts me very much to tell you. I'll be gone in like, four to seven months...yea...That's what the doctor told me..I have so much in my head that I want to say to the both of you but I can't manage to get the words out. Maybe someday I will." I stopped there. I dropped the recorder on the bed and lean back my head hitting the pillow and automatically the tears fall down.

I think I haven't stop crying yet that's why I had an attack earlier. But I manage to get my breathing back.

"Honey, can I come in?" I saw mum popped her head on my door. I sat up and wipe my tears looking at her as she walked in andclose yhe door behind her.

"W-where's mam?" I whispered as she sat by the bed.

"She's frozen downstairs." I sighed and her eyes caught the notebook at the bottom of the bed making my eyes widen as she picked it up.

She looked at me before reading it. Her hand flew to her mouth as she scanned what I wrote.

"So its true?" She whispered looking up to me. I swallowed the lump on my throat and gave her a sad smile.

"I wasn't suppose to tell but I did it anyway that's why I crossed #2 out." I whispered afraid my voice willcrack if I spoke clearly.

"I'm sorry you're not suppose to be putting up wi-"

"Max, Stop." She sighed and moved closer beside me engulfing me into a hug and felt tears damping my shoulders. Her soft cries eventually turn into sobs as she held me tighter.

I'm amaze by how I can be attach to people easily. That's why sometimes I just lock myself in my room because I don't like that cause I know even before that I'll be leaving soon and its hard to leave when there are people that who you love.

"I need to speak to mam." I whispered as I stroked her arm. She slowly pull away and wipe her tears and got on my knees facing her.

"It'll be alright mum. I'll be fine." I smiled and planted a kiss on the tip of her nose.

"I'll unfroze mam now." I let out a soft giggle but it was fake. I was just trying to lighten up the mood. I gave her one last kiss on the cheek  before making my way out of the room.

I took a deep breath before walking down the stairs. Honestly, I really need mam's comfort right now but I know she's much broken than me so I guess I'll have to do that job.

I slowly opened tge kitchen door to see mam sitted on the table staring at nothing and my heart dropped. I slowly walked to her and stood beside her. She didn't made any movement so I started stroking her hair but nothing.

"Mammy." I whispered as I touched her cheek for cong her to look at me. She has tears daring to come out but she's holding it in cause she doesn't want to believe.

"I-I'm going to expire soon" And that's when she burst in tears crying uncontrollably. I immediately sat slide her to create some space and sat down beside her holding her in my arms as she cried non stop.

"It'll be okay." I whispered sweet nothings and white lies to her. I held her tight like I'm never letting go. Suddenly she pulled away and stood up. She walk past me and out in the kitchen leaving me dumbstruck.

I followed her out of the kitchen and saw her on the stairs making her way up. I quickly ran upstairs and caught her in the hallway grabbing her hand making her stop.

"Mammy please." She turn around and looked at me straight in the eyes.I saw mum at the door of mam's room looking at us.

"What do you want me to say?" She whispered as she stood there with an emotionless face.

"I-I don't know, Maybe it'll be okay. You're not gonna die cause I'll find a wa-"

"You know that's not true." I sighed." Why are you talking to me?" I frowned at her and saw her lips tremble making ne soften.

"You shouldn't be talking to us. You should hate us.." She burst into tears so I quickly move closer to her and put my arms around her.

"Y-you should curse me for making your life hell." She cried and that's when it clicked. She's blaming herself for this. Mum walk closer to us and I gesture her to help me with mam to get her in my room. She nodded and put her arms around the both of us and we slowly walked to my room.

I sat mam on the bed and mum gestured herself to leave giving us some time alone making me smile and nodd and with that she left.

"Mammy..." I whispered and she held me tighter like she's not planning to let go. I'm trying my best to keep my tears in cause I need to be strong for her.

"I-I'm slowly killing you." She whispered when her sobs died down and I think she calmed down. I pulled away and gave her a sad smile wiping her tears.

"How can you manage a smile when your situation is like this." She whispered making me look at her and sighed.

"Cause I know you'll be great and move on. I'm not really leavibg completely. Maybe I'm not here physically but I'm always in your heart." She sighed and bit her lip.

"Mam, I want you to know and get it in your silly head that this is not your fault.None of this is. Its my fate. It might not be good but its enough. And I want to leave with complete happiness in my heart. I love you till eternity and you're the best mother in the universe." I wiped the tears thats flowing down her cheek and put a kiss on it.

"I have time left. And I want to spend it all with you and mum. No one else."