Queen Of Damn

CHAPTER 34 (Big Bad Wolf)

Warning:

Disturbing scenes ahead. It contains some violence and nefarious displays of domestic abuse.

Please bear in mind that they are just totally my fabrication that was built from my wildest imagination.

*Reina*

Another day just passed and enduring school hours, I managed to survive it. With the help of my supportive friends.

A few of the students gave their heartwarming sympathies, and some made bitter remarks, especially after learning about my traumatic childhood, I didn't bother to explain myself since they'd already had a conclusion. Masyado daw akong pa-victim.

People will say whatever they want. Even it will cut you open and/or break your spirit.

I'm becoming numb with every passing day. At araw-araw, unti-unti akong nauupos, nagsasawa at napapagod nang intindihin ang mga nangyayari.

Ni hindi ko na nga tinitingnan ang sarili ko sa harap ng salamin. Blangko na ang isip ko.

May ilang nagpahatid ng suporta at ilang encouragement mula sa ilang sikat ng grupo pangkababaihan at isinusulong ang kaligtasan at kapakanan ng miyembro ng pamilya. Isinangguni rin nila na gumawa ako ng legal na aksyon.

Ginawa ko na rin naman yun dati. Wala ring nangyari. Anong pagkakaiba ngayon?

Tinawagan na rin ako ni Tita Theresa, ang sabi niya, gagawan niya ng paraan, pero bago yun, katakut-takot na sermon muna.

Minsan, nakakapagod na ring magpaliwanag, kaya ayoko nang paabutin pa sa kanila.

Napabuntong hininga lang ako nang malalim bago ko tinanaw ang daraanan ko. Saka ko lang napansin ang pamilyar na lalaking nakatayo, at mukhang inaabangan talaga ako.

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad. Hindi ko alam kung tutuloy pa ako o babalik muna sa loob.

While I was second-guessing, he stepped in to come close.

I voluntarily avoided him, walking in the other direction. Still, he was dogging me out.

"Wait, Reina please, just let me talk to you," he quickly grabbed my arm.

"I don't have time for this, Vonne." I tried to release my arm from his firm grip.

"Please, this is important,"

"I don't think I have something to discuss with you, please let me go." I exerted force to get out of his hold. I finally pulled my hand off his hand.

"Reina, this is about the scandal, lemme explain, just listen to me for a moment," but he snatched my hand again.

"Ano pa bang dapat kong malaman? Wala na rin naman akong dapat itago, alam na ng lahat, kalat na kalat na."

"I know who did all of these, just lemme help you,"

"Vonne, kung anuman ang issue n'yong dalawa ni Jazzmine, wala na ako dun, It doesn't concern me anymore."

"She's doing this because she's jealous, she's always been jealous of you. But I'll do everything by all means and with my every power to stop her, I promise."

"Look, Vonne, gawin mo ang gusto mo, wala na akong pake. In fact, hindi mo na nga dapat sinasabi sa 'kin 'to. What's between you and me, it's already in the past, we had talked about this many times over, please, masyado nang maraming nangyari, 'wag ka nang makigulo.

And if you'll be doing this just for me, don't even bother, may buhay ka, may ibang buhay na rin ako. Irespeto mo na lang yung desisyon ko, kung pwede," huminga ako nang malalim.