One Chicago: Health First Part 4

Chapter 1265

Matt's POV: After spending the past 20 minutes unpacking a bit, I saw that Gabby was just finishing on the phone with her brother when I came back to bed. "What did Antonio want?" Gabby then turned to look at me. "He wanted to come over and visit Matteo. So, I called your sister and told her that my brother was going to visit." I nodded and agreed. "She okay with that?" Gabby smiled. "She didn't mind at all. She is glad we are relaxed. Apparently, she could tell based on how I was speaking to her that I was already much more relaxed."

I nodded and agreed with her as I moved to get in bed with Gabby. Sitting close to her in bed, I smiled as I closed the covers and then felt her move her hand to my chest. Grabbing it, I smiled as I looked down at her before moving to kiss her softly. "Believe me when I say this but, I can seen that you are much more relaxed already Gabby." Gabby smiled and agreed with me. "This is just a start though. You do realize that I do want to talk about my worries?" I nodded and understood as I went to intertwine our fingers before kissing her hand softly. "Of course."

Gabby smiled as she looked at me before slipping her legs in between mine. "Just maybe not yet. We just got comfortable and now I feel like I can finally just take a breather. I mean, don't get me wrong...I love Matteo and I am so glad to be his mom but..." I then went to finish her sentence. "Sometimes, you just need some time with me to talk about stuff and get stuff off your chest either by talking to me about it or just by me giving you the space you need." Gabby nodded and smiled at me. "That isn't selfish of me is it? Me needing space to be okay?"

I then sighed because I had mixed feelings about that. "Gabby, you can always have a little space but...not too much. Yes, do I want you to be able to think about stuff when you feel like you just need to take a breather and think things over? Of course I do. But, I am never going to give you enough space where you feel like you can't talk to me about stuff. Stuff that instead of worrying about alone, we can worry about together. Sure, you may feel like you are protecting me when you don't tell me but...it's my job to be there to give you the support you need."

Gabby then sighed. "I guess my stress is just also a bit of a flashback. I mean, I am scared that I am going to hide too much again just like I did when the whole Louie stuff started and that made us grow apart? And I know we have Matteo, so that makes things different and now we are going to have another baby but...I just have to look at my parents and my brother. They both grew apart from the people they had kids with. What about us?" I sighed and looked at her. "Gabby, I didn't know this is what you thought about sometimes. This is new to me and I want more info."

Gabby then sighed again before nodding. "My parents divorced, my brother had a divorce and I am positive that at least one of my grandparents. And they all had kids, more specifically...two kids. We divorced when we never had kids of our own. What's going to stop us from doing it all over again? Just the stress we've gone through would be enough to have ended us last  time. I guess all this rambling is me just asking you what's so different this time around that we are making it? What do I need to do to make sure that we will continue to make it?"

I looked at Gabby and smiled at her. "All you need to do Gabby is keep the lines of communication between us open and keep leaning on me. Gabby, we are going to make it because we learned our mistakes. And in my opinion, we deserve this time. Also, It's because we are going to do things differently. We can do so many things now that we know about your diagnosis. We can go to counselling. Not just alone but, together. Yes, I know that we both associate counselling with bad things but, it doesn't have to be when we get somewhere bad."

Gabby thought about it as she laid her head down on my chest. I then decided to wrap my arm around her more before kissing my forehead. "Gabby, we both know that it's hard for us to open up to each other. That's why I fight so hard now to get you to open up. You know I don't mean to yell sometimes right? Sure, it's a way that ends up getting you to open up but...it's not healthy. Especially for you. Be honest with me Gabby, when I yell at you...it makes you worry a lot more and it makes you feel bad because you feel like your OCD is getting in the way of us."

Gabby sighed as she kissed my chest softly. "Do you think it is?" I then shook my head. "No Gabby, it isn't. We are dealing with it and we are going to always deal with it. You are my wife and I am not going to just abandon you because you have a mental illness. I feel so guilty about doing it. Gabby, had I known last time around...I would've came to Puerto Rico because I would've seen how much better it made you feel and how it was the right thing for us."

Gabby then looked up at me. "That's something I need to ask about. Should I consider my dream to possibly go back to Puerto Rico with you somewhat dead now that we are expecting our second child? I mean, how are we going to raise 2 kids while also doing charity work." I then looked down at her and moved to run my fingers through her hair. "If there's a way...we will find it. But one that is pretty easy is maybe you can work and I can be a stay-at-home dad."

Gabby seemed shocked that I would even suggest that. "Matt, you aren't serious are you? You...a stay-at-home dad?" I nodded and smiled. "Gabby, that is how committed I am to us this time. Nothing is ever going to change my mind that we are meant to be together. I already almost lost you forever too many times now...I am never taking a chance that I am going to loose you again. The biggest proof of all...Gabby, I'm not even 40 and I've already had a vasectomy!" Gabby then smiled as she rubbed my chest when I grabbed it.

"I said this last time and it turned out not to be true. This time, I am determined to make sure that it is true for the rest of our lives. This is our time." Gabby smiled when I said that and then intertwined our fingers. "I promise, I believe you. I just like hearing it for some reason. Makes me feel more reassured every time I hear it." I then nodded while kissing her forehead again. "You just like hearing me say it because it's still hard to believe I guess?" Gabby nodded and smiled. "Matt, as far as I'm concerned...we are both on our fourth and fifth lives." 

I was confused when she said that. "Okay, you're going to have to explain that." Gabby then sighed as she looked at me. "Matt, you've been shot twice and almost died in a fire twice. I've been held a gunpoint, almost died from giving birth and almost died in a fire." I then understood what she meant and nodded. "That is really true. I just hate that it has to be true. But, is it wrong that I am not sorry that we had to go through all of that to end up together?" 

Gabby then shook her head as she went to kiss me softly. "No, because I am madly in love with you Matthew Casey." I smiled when she said that. "And I am madly in love with you Gabriela Casey." Gabby then smiled when I said that because it was her true name. While she was Gabby Dawson at work, she is and always will be Gabriela Casey legally when it comes to her personal life. Feeling Gabby lay her head down on my shoulder, I moved to kiss her forehead softly.

We then just laid there for a while, not caring that we were just just being quiet. "You know, I am kinda getting hungry. I didn't have a big breakfast this morning." Gabby then laughed when I said that. "On purpose I hope because I want to try this place's breakfast too." I nodded and agreed. "How about you grab the menu and then we can order us some real breakfast?" Gabby smiled and then looked at me. "Think it'll be brought to us by a robot again?" 

I then laughed when she said that, remembering our "Honeymoon" in Florida where I freaked out when I saw a robot deliver us breakfast rather than a bellhop. "Honestly, if it is...I like the idea under the circumstances. You know...." I then decided not to mention it considering our surrogate had COVID but, Gabby knew what I meant and sighed. "Let's not mention that. Please babe, can we just try and live in a bubble for today and tonight at least?"

I nodded and understood as I moved to kiss her forehead softly. "Of course. But just remember that everything is going to work out fine." Gabby then sighed and went to rub my abs to try and calm down. That's when I decided to reach over and grab the hotel phone. "Eggs and stuff okay with you?" Gabby then nodded as she looked at me. "Yeah, sure." I then sighed while moving to push her forehead up. "Everything is going to be okay. Say that for me okay Gabby?"

Gabby then nodded. "Everything is going to be okay." I then smiled as I leaned down to kiss her softly before getting up. "Let me just order, go to the washroom and then I will be right back." Gabby then let me get up, smiling at me as she grabbed my hand. "I love you." I looked at her and smiled. "I love you too." I then leaned down to kiss her one last time before grabbing the hotel phone to order us some breakfast on my way to the washroom.