𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐥 ♡ MinSung

Ch. 4

Minho POV

For being someone relatively well known-- very well known in my school, I think there are a lot of things that people don't know about me.

They don't know I have an older half brother named Christopher-- he's my father's 2nd wives son, and we're pretty close.

They also don't know that I have my own apartment that my parents bought me so I could live closer to the school, though I don't think many people would be surprised.

Another thing that most people have no idea about, is my on and off relationship with my father. They don't know about any of my friends from out of school, like Hyunjin, Chan, or Changbin.

But something huge that absolutely no one knew, and no one ever will know, is that I might, possibility, maybe, could, probably not might be gay or bi or anything that has to do with liking men.

I'm basically sure that it's just me being horny and desperate, but when I catch myself thinking about railing into some of the boys at my school it gets me scared.

Normally when that happens, I immediately arrange a hookup with one of my sex toys, a.k.a a girl from school who happens to be be whore.

When I say 'sex toy' I don't mean someone I bully, I just mean someone I have a mutual agreement to have sex with. Like friends with benefits but minus the friends.

Mutual with benefits I'll say.

Anyway, normally that's what I'll do, but after school I took a nap from about 4pm to 5pm, and I had a little dream...

It was about railing Junhae.. he's a generally petite boy that would almost undoubtedly be a bottom-- but let me make this clear, I have no feelings for him.

The most that happens is that I sometimes think about fucking him-- but let me repeat, I have no feeling for him, never have, and never will.

Anyway, I woke up after a wet dream to a raging boner, and needed to deal with it, I was too tired however to call one of my mutuals with benefits.

Now here I am, sitting in my bed, thinking about whether I should jerk off to the thought if Junhae or not.

If I do, then that's hella weird.. so maybe put on porn? But honestly, the thought of naked girls is kind of turning me off right now...

I bit my bottom lip grabbing my laptop anyway, and searching up what I normally do. However, when clicked the video, it was like an automatic turn off.

Seeing the girl with unreasonably sized breasts made me want to off myself. I clicked off after about a minute and paused the video.

For about 2 minutes I sat there, trying to ignore the ache in my dick, and slowly typed something into the search bar...

Gay/
Gay por/
Gay pornh/
Gay pornhub/

As I clicked the enter key, it felt very wrong, but seeing the thumbnails of all of the pretty little boys getting there asses destroyed made me harder..

I clicked on the first video that really stood out to me and listened as the clip started..

At first it was a pretty little boy giving a blow job, then after a while another man started teasing him with his dick.. after about 5 minutes, they were having full on sex.

The sounds of the high pitched whines and moans coming from the boys slightly parted and glossy lips made me so incredibly horny.

Without thinking, I grabbed my dick, spreading the oozing precum over the entire length, and started jerking off, thrusting my hips to match my pace.

I wasn't even paying attention to the fact that I was doing all this while imagining I was the man pounding into the boys ass in the video.

The petite man looked so cute, and fucked over, his face morphing into complete pleasure with every thrust. My orgasm was building and building, but I held it for as long as possible, not wanting to let this moment go.

When I finally came it was the best orgasm I had had in a while, making me give a heavier load than normal. For about a minute afterwards, I was in complete bliss.

I lay there breathing heavily, still not entirely thinking about what had had just done, but when it hit me, my eyes shot open and I sat up straight.

"What the fuck..." I whispered to myself starting to feel kind of regretful, "What the fuck.." I repeated more worried.

"No, that was just me being horny." I wiped my stomach quickly and tucked my dick back into my boxers, "That was a one time thing, that will never happen again." I told myself.

I imagined how my friends would react, the guys from school, my parents, if they found out I had jerked off to the thought of having sex with another man..

My father would disown me, the guys from school would call me a faggot, tell everyone, and beat me the fuck up, and my friends would all judge me.

They would all be too nice to say anything, but without a doubt, they would start to distance me, and I would lose them all.

I bit my lip feeling tears brimming my eyes, "That wasn't me. I'm not like that... I would never do that.."

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