Dear diary,
It happened. I've had a fear in the back of my mind about this happening since I was old enough to understand what it meant.
I told myself that it wasn't who I am and it's who I'll never be, but yet again, I was wrong.
I'm worried for what they'll think. I'm worried for what they'll do. I'm not strong enough to fight this on my own, but I'm also not strong enough to ask for help. I'm stuck at rock bottom.
If he were very to find out I might kill myself. No seriously. I don't know how to deal with this and I have a feeling it's getting getting be too much.
I'm constantly tired.
The thought alone overwhelms me everytime it pops into my mind uninvited, and I no longer have the motivation to keep fighting back and forth. I always ask myself the same question, but all I get in response is more unanswered questions.
I want help. I need help.
But what would they say? Would they abandon me like my mother? Maybe it wasn't her fault..
Please, whatever God is up there, I need you now. I'm sorry for all I have done, I really am.. I want to change. I swear this isn't who I am. I'm better than this.
I'm not gay.
-Lee Minho
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