𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐥 ♡ MinSung

Ch. 124

When the doorbell rang Jisung didn't even move. He already knew it was Felix because he had texted earlier to say he was coming over no matter what.

Jisung had simply relied to the text 'k' and left it at that, but he knew that sooner or later he would actually have to have a conversation with Felix about it.

He didn't want to for one main reason: Felix would lie.

He knew that Felix was going to say that none of it was true, and Jisung was perfect and he shouldn't have said anything like that. But Jisung knew the truth.

Even if Felix was actually sorry, he had no reason to be. Who was Jisung to be mad at him for simply telling him the truth?

There was a light knock on his bedroom door about a minute later, and Jisung let out a sigh, "Yeah, come in.." he called, knowing there was no escaping this.

"Hey.." Felix said sheepishly, kind of smiling as he peeked into the bedroom. His face was trying to seem sweet, but Jisung could see the guilt and shame dripping from his flaky eyes.

"Hi.." Jisung was propped up in his bed with homework sitting in his lap that he had been working on. He moved them to the side along with his pencil case and watched as Felix sat down on the bed a little ways away from him.

"So uhm.. I came to say sorry." Felix messed around with a random thing in his hands nervously, "I never should have said those things—"

"Look, Felix—" Jisung tried to talk, but Felix shook his head.

"No, just let me speak for a moment. I want to get this all out in one go." Jisung nodded and Felix continued, "I never should have said any of that. It was all lies, and I completely made it up. The only reason I even thought of saying any of that was because I was jealous. I was jealous and sad – but that's no excuse – I said those things only because I knew I would never get what you have with Minho. I wanted someone to love me the way Minho loves you, and I just thought that if I made you felt bad, I would feel better. I didn't. I can't put into words just how wrong it was of me to say those things, and I totally get if you don't want to, but if we could go back to being friends..." he trialed off.

Jisung waited a moment of silence to start speaking, "I'm not mad at you, Lixie. I get it. You were in a bad mood and I said something dumb and it set you off."

"What? How are you not mad?" Felix kinked his eyebrows together, confused, "After everything I said.. you seriously still like me?"

Jisung nodded, "How could I get mad at you for telling the truth? You say that it was all a lie, but I've heard it all before. I should just be grateful you're still here right? That you care enough to even apologize." He smiled a little bit.

Felix stared at him with his mouth slightly agape. There was a moment of pure quiet before Felix burst into tears, springing forward to hug his friend, "Jisung you dumb, bumb bitch.." he cried out.

The other boy sat stunned, having to take a moment to think about what was happening. Soon he hugged back tightly, "What do you mean?" He asked softly.

"I can't believe you'd ever think any of that is true. Just because I said it doesn't mean it actually means anything! Just because anyone said it! Everyone loves you Jisung – I love you, so just suck it up and deal with it!" It seemed like Felix was scolding him, but the words made no sense to him.

"But that's what Jeong-Hoon always says—"

"Jeong-Hoon! Fuck Jeong-Hoon! Everything his says is garbage that he pulled from his ass, Jisung. Nobody agrees with him." Felix pulled away, sniffling, "Promise me you won't ever listen to the things Jeong-Hoon says? There's a reason he's going to jail."

Jisung smiled, laughing for a moment before interlocking his pinky with Felix's, "I pinky promise."

"Good, because he's a little bitch boy." Felix sniffed again and Jisung used his thumb to wipe the tears from his cheeks, "So are we friends again?"

Jisung giggled, "We never weren't."

Felix smiled widely, "God I love you." He said before wrapping himself back around Jisung. Jisung hugged back tightly, but his mind roamed somewhere else.

He had lied. Jisung agreed with Felix only to put his friend at ease, but how was he supposed to actually believe what Felix had said.

Jeong-Hoon was so obviously right. Felix says he's not, but Jisung is the one who actually hears what the elder has to say.

How could Jisung know? Even if Felix hadn't meant the insults he gave, Jeong-Hoon sure did. He meant every word he said every single time he said it, and it was hard to argue with that.

For now Jisung might just roll with Jeong-Hoon, and then when the court cases finally start up he can be free. Maybe by that time Jeong-Hoon might have knocked some sense into the boy.

Maybe.